Sad Poetry from a Happy World

**stars**

I am an empty void smushed into a teenage girls body

I'm just writing now

Words flow from my dissociated brain to someone else's fingertips

To someone else's world

I'm not here

I am in the clouds

Soaring, dreaming

Watching

These eyes are a crystal ball spying on her

That young, beautiful, vibrant girl

Hairline fractures show the darkness beneath

She reaches desperately for love, but none feels right to her

Unfulfilled, she breaks another heart

She doesn't want to do this

She wants it to stop

Please let me stop

Breathing in the dark air and smoke

Will this fix me?

Everything is getting farther away

I'm not here

I follow the cloud of fruity smoke into the atmosphere

Head spinning, eyes squinting

My stomach churns but I don't control this body

I don't feel it

Or anything

Smoke dissipates as we laugh to cover our tears

As we lay back, rivers of stars flow from our dark, sunken eyes

We are lost

But in the end

We can't change

So embrace this life

With its ups and downs

And love

with everything

You have -E.B Moon