Cinnamon [COMPLETE] (Unedited)

Life is meant to be lived.

Song: Got it in you~BANNERS

Surprisingly,the guy doesn't leave right away. "Do you know if there is a pharmacy near here? Cause I have a horrible headache."

I dare to smile at him "There is one just down the road." I answer politely just when Lyla starts to cry. I smile apologeticaly at the guy and start moving away trying to calm the baby down.

I can't help but turn around to see the young man as he walks off.

His dark auburn hair is messy like he's been running his fingers through it. A lot. I smile at the thought but then scold myself.

Ew gurl. What's gotten into you thinking about strangers? He was simply nice to you it's not like he even paid you a second look
Thanks brain,thanks a lot. Now my confidence is boosted...

I sigh as I drop the cereal box inside the cart and keep walking down the isles trying to calm Lyla down. "What is it baby girl? What's wrong"? I whisper as I put a few cans of cat food in the shopping cart. Instead of calming down, Lyala cries even louder.

I bite my bottom lip and ignore the annoyed stares from the people around me while I put my groceries in my bags and the baby keeps crying. As I'm walking out my reusable bag snaps and the canned cat food along with some other stuff falls on the wet sidewalk.

"Dammit. Why is everything going wrong today"? I grunt and am ready to start crying. Sighing once again I try to bent down to pick up the things but a familiar voice speaks.

"Here.Let me help you with that" I look up and am met with the same guy from earlier.

"Oh it's fine.." i try to say but he is already picking up my things. Before I can even try to bent down and help him he has already picked up everything and stands up straight.

"Where to ma'am"? He winks at me and I can feel the blush creeping up my neck. I gulp and start walking towards my apartment. He soon catches up and is walking by my side. Lyla has fallen asleep inside the sling, curled up against my chest.

"What's her name"? His voice is somehow familiar but I'm sure I've never met him before. It just feels like home to hear him.

"Lyla" i whisper.

He smiles. "She's very cute".

I smile at him too. "Yeah,I know".

"And what is your name"? He asks and for some reason I feel comfortable talking to this stranger.

"Kathryn. And you are"?

"Just your knight in shining armor". I laugh at that.

"Well thank you for the help mr. Knight. We're here". I say as I unlock the door and reach for the canned cat food and the chocolate bars I craved. He looks at the sleeping baby and hesitates but gives in and hands the groceries over.

"Umm...did you go to the pharmacy or do you still need some pain meds"? I ask him noting the way his hand goes to his head once the things are in my arms.

"I do actually. Do you happen to have some"? I nod and walk inside. The moment the door opens Kira and Mister run up to me.

"Hope you're not afraid of animals." I say as I put the groceries on the kitchen counter. He shakes his head and pets Kira. Mister sniffs at his running shoes and then comes towards me and jumps up on the counter. I scratch behind his ears.

"Hey little bud. Missed me already"? I kiss his head and  walk out of the kitchen after getting the pain pills from the drawer I keep the first aid kit in.

"There you go" i say handing him the pills and a glass of water. Then,I take Lyla out of the sling and gantly lay her on the couch. Kira immediatly runs up to her and licks her tiny foot before laying down on the floor besides the sleeping baby.

I sigh and turn back at the anonymous guy. "I have still to learn your name. You already know mine as well as where I live. I believe I deserve to know your name if not your address too". I mess with him and he smiles handing me back the glass.

"It's Felix" he says softly and I smirk.

"And your address"? I joke but He shakes his head

"I don't think your boyfriend would like me telling you my address."

I snort. "My what? What,just cause I have a baby I need a boyfriend"?

He gulps "N...no no I didn't mean it like that! I just thought,you are pretty and you have a baby so having a boyfriend just made sense. I'm sorry.." i cut him off by laughing.

"I'm just messing with you".

He runs a hand through his hair "Well in that case,I live just a few doors away so... maybe we'll see each other again." I hope we do

"Goodnight Kathryn". He makes a small bow and exits the door. When he turns around I notice the blank ink swirling out of his shirt collar a tiny bit.

"Goodnight mr.Knight." i say and close the door.

Once the door is closed I sigh once more and walk up to Lyla,I pick up the baby and with Kira on my heels I go to the previously guest room , that is now Lylas and put her in her little bed.

She looks so much like Ethan and Emily. She is a perfect mixture of the two. With Ethans eyes and tan skin and Emilys red hair and freckles. My heart aches at the memory of the two. The thought of everyone I loved that is gone now causes a few tears to escape my eyes but I am quick to wipe them away.

With Lyla and everything going on I didn't have the chance to go in that dark,deep ocean of grief and emotions. I'm glad for that. And even though I loved them both and still do dearly I can't afford to go to that place again. Not now. Not with Lyla here. Now,I need to be here for her.

I want to believe that God let me live and not join the others for a reason. But some times it's so hard to not wonder why. Why am I still here and they are not?

I don't know... i don't know why God lets all these auful things happen in the world. Death,sickness,war and so much more. But I trust that he has His reasons and I have faith in Him. I mean,if I had all the answers I would be the God of the story. Having faith when you don't have the answers is the real deal.

Of course I'm not over their deaths. I don't know if I'll ever be.

And I don't know what will come next. I don't know what the plan for the future or even for tommorrow is. But I am ready.  I have Lyla and I swear to raise her to the best of my abilities for her to become the best person she can be.

I have yet to be pulled out of the water,but at least I'm not drowning anymore. I'm not swimming either, i guess you could say...I'm floating. But I'm ready to get out.

I won't forget those who I lost along the way, but I will keep moving forward hand in hand with all my memories of them.

I will keep living for those who can't anymore. For all of them. And I hope that they are proud of me. That they are looking down with smiles on their faces.

Life is meant to be lived with others. And it's your choise if you will live it alone or not even when everyone seems to be gone. I learned that the hard way, but now I know. I'm not alone. And I am reminded of that every day. With every smile Lyla offers me , with every call Vivian or my dad make, with every random act of kindness from a stranger , with every swimming pool I come across or every time the scent of cinnamon hits me. I am reminded that,even in the darkness it's your choise to turn on the light and even in the deepest ocean it's you who will take the hand someone else offers.

So get out there and live the best life you can.

                                     ~Fin~

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Guys this is the final chapter of this book. But I plan on making an Epilogue. If you would like me to do so vote and leave a comment.

Thank you so much for joining me on this journey. I hope you enjoyed the book.

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