This day started off horrible and as if it couldn't get worse I had a test in trig. I totally bullshitted it, oh well. In all honesty, the only thing I could think about was William. His eyes dark brown hair, his pitch black eyes in which I always seem to get lost in, his light copper skin, and most of all his smile. I swear to God that his smile can cure cancer.....Okay maybe that's overdoing it. Then I thought about Stephanie. The most popular girl in school but still hung out with us. I thought about her strawberry blonde hair, her eyes are as blue the sky, and her clothes the most expensive. Honestly, who wouldn't want her? She's just so perfect and I'm just... me .
He asked me to talk to Stephanie after school, and I agreed. He was so desperate, so eager to have his best friend helping with the "love of his life". I mean, what even is love now a days? Everyone says I love you, they say it so much that now it's nothing but a word. It doesn't have a deep meaning like before. That word has been cheated out so many times that it has lost its value. One of the most precious things in the world, and its value has been lost.There is no perfect couple, of course everyone fights. The only love is when you decide to stay with someone and go through everything together. You are willing to go through problems and you are willing to sacrifice anything and everything for them.
I decided to record the conversation because I know he's going to want to know everything that happened. School ended and I started to look for her. Nobody can miss her because she always wears the best clothes. 2 seconds and I founder her. I walked up to her and pressed the record button on my iPhone.
Me: Hey Steph, long time no talk. How was your day?"
Stephanie: Hey jazz, today was awesome! I got asked out by the captain of the football team! His name is Ryan. Who knew a senior can be interested into a freshman? I guess I'm that hot and obviously I said yes. We will be the most hottest couple ever. Oh sorry, what's up?"
Me: Oh nothing, just the usual. Just wanted to know if the rumor was true..."
Stephanie: What rumor?!?!
Me: You don't know? Well basically everyone is talking about how you were going to get Ryan drunk in your party next week. People are saying that you're gonna try and have sex for him.
Stephanie: I mean he is hot but like i'm not gonna fuck him. Shit's nasty considering I'm a freshman. I don't want to be a hoe. I think I know the bitch that started it... Was it Britney? Fucking bitch. Anyways, I gotta go and call everyone, specially Ryan, to figure this shit out. Later jazz.
Me: Alright, bye Steph.
I stopped recording. Ah shit, he's gonna be so devastated. I have to help him... I mean I don't know how but I will. I guess the only good thing about this is that he won't have to go out with a fuck girl.
30 minutes later...
I showed him my conversation with Stephanie and he sighed. Shit. I mean he looked fine while listening but all of a sudden his eyes began to turn red and watery and all of a sudden he was crying. What am I supposed to do? I know i have to talk to him but what do I say? Like 'oh yea, she might have broken your heart but at least you don't have cancer'.
Me: Hey, William, it'll be okay, I promise. You'll forget about her and you will be alright. She's not worth it. I mean look at it this way, she has broken so many hearts and she has played with so many guys. I know she's our friend but what makes you think that she won't do that with you? I mean... what I'm trying to say is that it could be totally worse. She could have cheated on you or something. I know this isn't helping any but I hope you get what I mean. You'll be okay man.
William: No, I won't be okay. I love her and she just left with another guy. I would accept it if she was with another freshman, but a senior? Really? The end of the year will come and they'll be separated. I can totally be better for her but why can't she just see that? I just.... I have fallen head over heels for her and she just, doesn't want me. I get what you're saying but I know I won't get over her.
Me: Ah come on Will, you know damn right she deserves that. I don't care if you love her or not, she had it coming one way or another . I mean if I was with you I'd never break your heart. You're a great guy and you just deserve the best. You have respect and you're sweet and fun and just wonderful. You deserve someone much better than that. You deserve someone that loves you for you. I know how it feel to be heartbroken. Trust me. The pain is horrible but at least you have the chance to be happy. I won't be happy. But you see me. I'm still strong.
William: Okay jazz, I'll try but I gotta go. I'll come back when I'm feeling better alright. Bye and thanks for helping out man.
Me: Okay, don't forget that my house is always open to you. Bye Will.
I hugged him one last time and he left. I'm now convinced that love was not meant for me. She's clearly better than me and if he doesn't deserve her then what makes me think that I deserve him? Oh god, I'm such an idiot.
