Man, today in school I had the worst day this week. One, it was Monday. Two, i was late... Again. My hair was so horrible and I totally forgot to put on an undershirt. My bra was so visible!!! Thank God my being flat chested help tons. No one noticed.... He looks so bad he told me that he needed time. Then he left. Time for what?!
The whole day I thought about that.. Question just swarming in my head, making me feel uneasy. Oh god, why does this always happen to me. Not cool. When I got home I didn't even bother talking or eating. I just thought and watched some BTVS (Buffy the vampire slayer) I wish i was like her. Whoever she likes, they like her back. She is so cool but i guess im stuck being me.
My pain during all this is horrible. I never actually thought about me. When I got deep into the conversation with myself I notice that I really needed help. I needed a friend. I can't talk to him. No, not yet. I can talk to Stephanie, she will tell everyone. I guess it's time to talk with my backup... Angel.
I decided that it was the most convenient time to call Angel because he told me that if I ever needed help then I could just call him. I took up my phone and dialed...
Me: (phone rings) (picks up) Hey, Angel, it's me... Jazmin. I decided to take you up on that offer you made me. You know, the one where you help me with some important things. I know i can trust you. You've helped me before, you know.
Angel: oh hey jazmin, of course i can help you. You know you can trust me. Just tell me everything from the beginning. I swear I won't tell anyone.
Me: Okay, thank you so much angel... Well it all started one day. Remember when i met William? Well, that day i started to... Well I have some... Oh my gosh... I've never said it... Okay here it goes, IloveWilliam.
Angel: Wait... You like, William?! Oh. My. God. I never knew that. Oh, no wonder you're always smiling and laughing at his jokes!!! You can totally tell if you find the connection. Well. I promised I would give you advice. What's wrong?
Me: Well he kinda likes Stephanie but since he found out about the Styker he has kind of been weird about it lately. He told me you need some time. What does he mean by time?!?
Angel: Well he probably means that he wants to be by himself to think about everything that has been going on. Or he just doesn't want to see you. You can ask him why, but he might ignore you.
Me: Well yeah, I don't want to bother him. I guess I should let him go for a while right?
Angel: yea you should. A little though. Well Jazmin, I have to go but it was nice talking to you. See you in school, yeah?
Me: Yea , of course, bye and thank you so much. See you tomorrow. (Hangs up phone)
Well that was good. I know that this love is bad and I don't want to love him but it hurts. My pain feels as if my body was aching all day. It feels as if my heart and soul are burning down in hell. Hell's burning sensation has some kind of comfort to my blood, but you my heart, it's turning it into ashes. Death... A slow death is how this love feels like. If I knew love felt like this then i would have just pushed it away. Nothing can make me feel better. Especially now, since I won't be able to see him or talk to him. Boys are so complicated yet so simple. What is ove like this? Why my first love?... Why?
Boys
By Jazmin Alcaraz
Boys Boys Boys- what is wrong with boys, they play and they love, but it is so similar we can't tell apart, they confuse and manipulate us however and whenever they want, so we all get frustrated and leave them all, they act mad or sad and make us go back, so we all stay confused and manipulated for life, what is wrong with them? What is wrong with the boys?
