Pregnant with my new bosses baby

Chapter 21

Nathan's P.O.V
"I am a man whore!"
"I am a piece of shit!"
I said this words to myself everyday it's become a routine. I've lost everything my girl, my child, and my company everything is gone. I have no money, I am a drunk I have a problem.
I cheated on Christy with my new assistant I remember that day so clearly. Me being the rich attractive guy that I am couldn't keep my dick to just one  girl I had to explore with other females. My new assistant was just too easy I complimented her outfit and I had her begging for me.
I wasn't bored or Christy if anything I was in love with her. I was bored of who I was becoming I had a reputation to live up too, I wasn't just gonna settle down and become a dad someone's husbands. That's not who use James men are we band anything that has a pussy and walks it's just part of our family, my father did that and guess what so will I. Sooner or later I have to learn I've lost everything and I am still doing the same shit. Ever since Christy and Joshua left I've been hooking up with my old assistant her name is Scarlet but I don't call her that I don't call her anything she's just a thing to me.
I've spent way to many days hung over puking my life away over stupid shit that I've done. My family doesn't give a fuckk they have a reputation to keep up and don't want the world knowing that they have a alcohol son. Wow! That's the first time I admit it I am a alcoholic.

*Knock knock*
Guess someone is at the door. I stood up from the living room couch and make my way to the front door and there right in front of me was Scarlet half dressed like always. I opened the door and let her in.
"Hey hottie!" She said as she made her way Into my house grabbing my face and kissing my lips.
"What are you doing here?" I said annoyed at the fact that she just made her way into MY house.
" Wow that's a first you never ask me what I'm doing here. But I'm here for the usual. Let's head to your bed" she said walking towards the stairs. I just looked at her with no emotions.
This is the chance Nathan you either change your life today or you go fuck the shit out of her.
But, just seeing her dressed in that short jean skirt with her black laced shirt making it obvious to see her breast made it so hard to say no.
I followed her up the stairs and into my bed room.
"Lay down and relax" she said pointing to the bed gesturing for me to lay down, and that's what I did I layer down and just stared at the wall. I felt her hands grab a hold of my waste band and unbutton my jeans, I just laid there staring at the wall.  She started to put her hands Into my boxers grabbing ahold of my dick I wasn't turned on at this point but I knew once she took it out thing were gonna chance. And that's exactly what happened.... She started of by just having her hand rub up and down on my dick than she started putting her mouth on it. And let me tell you this bitch knows how to work her mouth and her tongue I made sure I left her throat sore when she was done with me.  I got up from the bed and started to remove her clothes I laid  her on the bed and got ready to have sex with her, but before i put my dick in there I made sure I spit in her pussy and but my dick right at the entrance, I slowly made my way inside of her going slow at first and picking up the past. Sex with her was just plan and boring it wasn't the same as sex with Christy. Christy made it more meaning for gave it more emotion. With Scarlet it was the same she wouldn't scream when I would pound hard Into her pussy she barely even moaned.
Our sex sessions lasted about 1 hour than after that she would get dressed and leave, but we both knew she would be back this afternoon. It was just sex with her casual and I made sure I didn't nut inside of her but on her face like the real man that i am.

But, here I was in bed all alone feeling slightly disappointed in myself but not willing to change anything in my life. Knowing that things could be better, but not wanting to make the effort to change anything.
I looked over to my phone and for a second I thought maybe I'll reach out to christy to make things better for her and my son. But I knew the answer to that she wasn't going to reply I've sent her numerous messages and it got to the point where she didn't answer.
Maybe it is time for me to make some changes in my life and get the women I love back.
Christy you are going to be mine once again I will make sure you don't leave this time. I will do anything to have you and my son back nothing in this world can stop me from being with you and my son. We are going to be a family once and for all. I will make sure of that! Nothing is going to tear us apart, not until I die.
I have never stoped loving you.
I've had those words stuck in my head but I've done nothing about it she didn't want to hear it and I couldn't just tell her so here I am stuck.
The first lesson here is too stop being a coward!