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Denver.
Short uncontrollable breaths left my lungs as I came from my high. I slid out Zach,who was still a puddle of mess under me,his  body jerking and twitching from the after effect of what we just had.

Normally,after getting off like this I would feel contented and even go for another round but today it was different ,instead I felt as though I had just dug out a crater sized hole in my heart and a foreign feeling called guilt. Maybe it was because I thought I saw Cerian at the door earlier.

My mind was playing dirty tricks on me.

"Fuck that was amazing," Zach panted,but I just ignored him, reaching for my pants and what was left of my dignity.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah," My shoes came last,then I got up,ruffling my hair to try and make it look presentable.  "When's today?"

"Monday.." He put on his shirt.

"I know that," I huffed, "What date?"

"Eighth...I think," fuck! "Why,you're acting weird,"

I was totally toast, eighth was Cerian's special date,our freaking wedding anniversary and it just slipped off my mind. Hell! I didn't even have a gift for him and I had just screwed my intern. Am in not the best spouse in the entire planet?

"It's your wedding anniversary?"Zach asked,I don't understand how the hell he was calm.

"How'd you know?"

He shrugged,zipping his jeans, "I've seen how my dad gets...fidgety,when he screws his secretary on their anniversary,I'm guessing you have no gift for him either?"

"Well..yeah," I scratched my neck and he just smiled.

"First off calm down," He advised. I took a deep breath and exhaled, "Then think about what he likes, chocolates?"

"Cerian hates chocolates,he likes cars and video games,watches.."

"Buy him flowers," I looked at him as if he'd lost his mind.

"Think,everything you mentioned on his list is  classy and fucking expensive. Flowers are simple and I bet he will love them. What did you get him last time?"

"A car,"He chuckled.

"What about the year before that?"

"A Rolex," He rolled his eyes and let out an annoyed groan.

"What about before all this," He waved his hands in a circular motion, "Before fame and wealth,what'd you get him?"

"On our first date,I got him a necklace, I made out of wood. He worships that thing," I found myself smiling at the distant memory.

"See...the simple things matter,go get him a flower,you know,the fake ones put in transparent boxes with things like snow in them. Like the enchanted rose of beauty and the beast?"

"Yeah,thanks so much..will you clear up."

Zach waved me as I jolted out of the room and ran to my office to get my jacket and laptop ,asking Bexley to lock up once she was done.

Vince was already waiting for me when I got out of the building and after a warm "Good evening sir" he drove out of the premises. On the way home,I stopped at the market and bought a red rose just like Zach had described silently praying that Cerian will love it.

Never have I been nervous,walking up the steps to my house. Whether I was feeling guilty after my little charade with Zach in the studio ON OUR ANNIVERSARY or I was scared Cerian would be mad at me for almost forgetting what day it was today.