Do You Wanna Kiss Me? [Harry Styles Fanfiction]

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The moment i wake up the first thing i am thinking about is Harry. I look at my phone and see no missed calls from him. He called me like ten times after i droped the phone but then the calls stop. I decide to check his account and when i see the pic of us is still there i sigh with relief. He could tell the girl to leave him alone or something like that. Well, i hope so.

But my main problem is lack of sleep. I have a terrible headache and i'm nauseated. I decide to stay at home even though Jen texts me and suggests to hang out with her and Red. I havent seen them for a while. Honestly, i dont miss them. I feel fine about having new friends. I always get tired of people. When i meet someone new i often forget about my old friends. They think that i dont wanna be their friends any more and they are a bit right.

I tell Jen about my bad condition and she is pissed off. I dont bother to read her text-messages. I just go down to the kitchen.i am thirsty.

I startle when i see my brother at the table. I startle recalling his comments under Harry's post. When i feel like i can control myself i enter the kitchen slowly. He is totally right about his friends but i feel calmer on this whole situation.

I make breakfast and sit next to Kevin.

'How was your night?' he asks casually.

'Fine, i am just a bit tired,'i answer trying to sound normal. I guess i know why he is asking me.

'I saw you and Harry spent a night together. You went to the club with him?' He is calm but i know he will find the reason to shout at me.

'No, i was there with my friends. We met occasioanlly and then a photographer suggested to take a picture of us. If you wanna know whether we end up together i'll tell you no. I went home and he went with some girl. So the end of the  story.' I start to eat my flakes faster. I want to come back to my room.

'He went to his apt alone and he slept alone,' my brother says confused.

I raise my brow and look at him.

'Well, maybe he called a girl but i know that he wasnt alone last night.' I dont know why i said that.

' I was with him last night. I slept at his place. There was only Abbey but then she left so we were alone.'

'Maybe he was hiding a girl in the closet but you know what? fuck off,' i get so annoyed. I put my bowl into the sink and go back to my room.

I dont know what got on my nerves so much: the fact that he was with Abbey or that my brother heard our conbersation. Why was she with them? If i agreed to go with Harry, would it be me with them then? I need a distraction. Someone who doesnt know about me and Harry. I text Jen and invite her come to my place. She agrees and brings Red with her. We stay by the swimming-pool, talk and laugh. Jen and Red tells me about their love affairs and i pretend to be very interested whereas i imagine how my life with Harry could look like. It reminds me the times when we were at high school. We spent lots of time lying on sun beds next to my swimming-pool and talking about boys. I have never had a boyfriend at school so i was just listening to my friends. Well, nothing changed.

'I'm hungry,' says Red out of a sudden. 'Do you have any snacks in your friedge?'

'Uhm, yeah,' i answer and stand up. We could all go back to the house and cook something. I loved coking with my roomies back in NYC. 'I'll grab something,' i mumble as i walk to the back door. No one joins me. I dont bother to put on some clothes like T-shirt or shorts or cover my body in a towel. I just go in my bathing-suit.

I open the fridge and see that we dont have much healthy food. Some fruits and lots of chips. Red is on a diet so i guess fruits will be just fine. I put everything in the bowls and on the plates. I will have to come back to grab everything.