Luke's Point of View
One person down, now I only have the rest of the world to go. I can do this, I can do this. It's all going to be okay.
Over the next few days I found myself disclosing my little secret to the people closest to me. Ash and Mike took extremely well like Cal, and it made me feel all the more blessed to have them in my life. They ensured that I knew that I was in a safe environment and that I could be open about who I love in the same way that they are. It took everything in me to not get emotional that night. It was something I had wanted to tell them since I was a teenager but I didn't know how, I didn't know what they would say or what they would do.
The hardest was telling my mother. She didn't have the slightest clue, I had hidden it so well from everyone. Over text was especially hard, but it was easier than saying it face to face. I know for a fact had she been there physically that I would have broken down and cried like a baby.
"Mum, I have something I need to tell you. I've been keeping this a secret for so long and I'm sorry for not being honest with you. I'm sorry that I haven't told you the truth. Please don't think of me any different. At the end of the day I'm still your son, and you're still my mother. Mum, I like men. I have a boyfriend and he makes me happier than any woman could. I love him, please don't hate me for this."
My own internalized homophobia made me think that anybody who found out would instantly think of me as different or ultimately end up hating me for it. But that didn't happen. Not in the slightest. I got support from people, people telling me that it doesn't change how they view me as a person. People who would never judge me based on who I find myself falling in love with.
With family and close friends now knowing, a major obstacle had been cleared. At least around the boys, him and I could openly be a couple. The next big step is being able to openly love him at any given time. Hopefully it's not easier said than done, I've gone too long hiding myself to the point that I can't take a minute more in any closet ever again.
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Into You (Luke Hemmings x Male Reader)
Fanfiction"Got everyone watching us, so baby let's keep it secret. A little bit scandalous, but baby don't let them see it. A little less conversation and a little more touch my body." Love is never easy, but is only made more diffi...
