Dirty Little Secret (niall horan fanfic)

Chapter Seventeen

Your P.O.V

I took my shower being careful not to scrub my arms to hard so the cuts wouldn't reopen and bleed even more then Niall would definitely know what I've done and I couldn't let him know, he will get stressed and worried all the time and he doesn't need that at the moment he's has to concentrate on the tour and album he doesn't need the extra stress of my pathetic little problems. I don't even know what he sees in me, the fans are right I'm fat, ugly, useless and don't deserve him. He deserves some WHIS skinny, pretty and doesn't have an annoying laugh, he deserves better than me.

I turn the shower off and stepped out wrapping a towel around my disgusting body and wrapped one around my head to help my hair dry. Picking up my clothes I walk to the bedroom and dry off. I don't feel like making an effort so I just pull my underwear and jeans back on along with one of Niall's t-shirts and hoodies. The smell of him and his warm clothes relaxes me and makes me feel a but more safe. I took the towel off my head and brushed my hair letting it dry naturally.

As I walk downstairs I can smell cooking, it smells so good and I can hear a lot of pots and pans clinking and a few curse words from his mouth. I stand in the door way watching him run around the kitchen looking for stuff. I have to stifle my giggles but it doesn't work and he stops what he's doing and looks at me with a small smile.

Niall's P.O.V

You'd think I'd know what I'd need and where I put everything by now but your wrong, I want this dinner to be perfect, perfect for her, my princess. I heard her giggle and I look at her smiling I must look like a right idiot at the moment but god she looks so good in my hoodie even if it is miles to big for her, only she could pull the "big and baggy" look off.

She slowly walks over to me and that the stuff out of my hands letting out a little giggle every now and then 'what's so funny princess?' I asked trying sound offended but failed 'you don't even know where everything is in your own kitchen' she lets out another little giggle god damn it was fucking cute the way her dimples only showed ever so slightly 'well I'm not here most of the time and Will never puts anything back in the right place so you can't blame me' I replied chuckling to myself for no reason what so ever.

Sighing and putting everything on the kitchen counter 'how about we just order take out? I can't anything properly I'm gonna have to have words with Will' she nodded her head in agreement 'can we watch a film as well?' Her eyes looking almost child like 'take out and film night it is princess' she come over and wrapped her arms tightly around me and I done the same to her and she buries her head in my neck. 'Why don't you go and choose some films while I order the food yeah?' She nods her head and goes into the living room. Maybe I can make a romantic meal out of the take away with some candles on the table and then we can watch films afterwards.

I order the food and start setting the table with candles and two wine glasses and everything else

Your P.O.V

I picked a few films not sure if Niall will like them or not or he might get bored of them but oh well he will have to put up with them just like he has to put up with me unfortunately for him, he's taking ages in the kitchen all he has to do is order the food... Maybe he's trying to avoid my company, even I don't like my own company so I don't blame him

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The food was amazing but not as amazing as Niall, he set up a romantic table just for us he's so adorable and lovely and I just hope I can give him everything he needs and wants but most importantly I hope i am good enough for him. We're now cuddled up on the sofa, my head laying on his lap with a blanket over me and him playing with my hair watching the vow. If I ever lost my memory I wish Niall would make me fall in love with him all over again p, even tho none of us have said those three words to each other yet I don't care, I'm too much of a chicken to say them first, I'm too scared I'll make a fool of myself and he don't feel the same way.

I can feel my eyes getting heavy, I'm drifting in and out of sleep with my eyes closed I can feel myself falling to sleep. I faintly hear Niall sigh and quietly whisper 'why did you cut yourself baby? Why couldn't I have seen the way you was feeling and what was going through your head? I won't let you feel like that again I promise, but I need you to promise you'll tell me when your feeling down, we Weill get through it together' he paused as if he was thinking whether or not to carry on like he was scared 'I... I love you there I said it and I know you won't even hear what I'm saying cause your asleep but that's okay baby cause I'll tell you in the morning, in the middle of the day and at night, I'll tell you every minute of every day that I love you' I tried to stop myself smiling cause this is what I loved most about Niall, he was to shy to say stuff until I was asleep well at least when he thinks I am and then the next day I'll hear it all over again and I don't mind cause I know he would have gone over it in his head hundreds of times. Finally feeling happy and knowing he loves me I fell into a deep sleep

AN: sorry I haven't updated in like months and months but I've had a lot of stuff to do and I saw the boys live!!! They was fucking amazing wembley stadium 7th june 2014 will always be the best day off my life!! So I hope you liked the update I'll try to update more often and thank you for reading my story so far love you all loads!! X