Dirty Little Secret (niall horan fanfic)

Chapter Eighteen

AN: okay guys i know it's been 6 years now since i last updated but these last six years have been absolutely crazy for me! i will explain more if people want to know but i'm determined to finish this story!

Niall's POV:

this night has been amazing! we talked and laughed so much during dinner, her cheeks went a light shade of pink once she had seen the set up i had done. i went full out with wine, candles, roses and soft music playing in the background. only the best for my princess.

we got finished with our meal and when she reached out to take my plate to help clear up i saw them, the cuts. they looked so sore and aggressive. i tried not to let my face show that i had saw them because i don't want to ruin the night.

after we both cleared up and settled down on the sofa. i was sitting and she was laying down with a blanket wrapped around her and her head on my lap. if i could stay like this forever i would.

after a few films i noticed Y/N eyes were closed and her breathing slowed showing she was asleep, she looks so peaceful like nothing is wrong but it's the complete opposite. i sigh playing with her hair "why did you cut yourself baby? Why couldn't I have seen the way you was feeling and what was going through your head? I won't let you feel like that again I promise, but I need you to promise you'll tell me when your feeling down, we will get through it together' i paused to steady my breathing to control my emotions, i have tears in my eyes just thinking about the pain she must be feeling to do this to herself, i took a deep breath 'I... I love you there I said it and I know you won't even hear what I'm saying cause your asleep but that's okay baby cause I'll tell you in the morning, in the middle of the day and at night, I'll tell you every minute of every day that I love you" everything i said is true i love her, completely and utterly love her. i've never felt like this with someone before and it scares me but i'm excited to see where this chapter of my life will take me, take us.

Your POV:

i don't care that he's seen my cuts because i now know that he loves me and he wants to help me get over the self harm, i know that he's not just going to run away at any chance he gets, he's going to be there for me like no one else ever has been.

i keep my eyes closed and stay 'asleep'. i feel Niall carefully move my head to stand up and then ever so gently feel him lift me up and carry me to the bedroom. the soft mattress against my body feels so good, he takes my jeans off replacing them with a pair of his shorts leaving me in his t shirt and hoodie. the warm duvet being draped over me makes me feel safe. i hear shuffling then the creek of the bed next to me as Niall gets into bed and pulls me gently into him. i turn to face him and snuggle into his chest, feeling safer than i ever have done before.

i've decided in the morning i will tell him everything including my terrible past and about me cutting myself. he starts playing with my hair again and ever so softly sings to me and that's all i remember before falling asleep is feeling the warmth of his body on mine and his soft voice in my ears.