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Part 50 - So fücking much

*Play the song if you want*

Taehyung POV

It was the middle of the night. I was sitting on the chair near her bed still looking at Raehee. I couldn't sleep one bit and my eyes were shutting every few seconds because of it.

I walked to closed the curtains in the room and looked down back at Raehee. All I could think about was just seeing her scream at me. Seeing her wanting to push me away.

I sat back down on the chair while reaching out to her hand beside her, placing mine on top of it. I  stroked the top of them with my thumb as I checked whether her mum was asleep.

"I- I know you probably hate me. I know that maybe I did something wrong. But believe me when I say this. Don't ever think I don't care. Even when I push you away. Even when I act jealous. I still care. I know you feel hurt by something and I know this isn't just about the post. Even if you never want to speak to me, just know I still love you.."

I tried to be strong. I tried to convince myself loving her was wrong because of everything she's been through. But maybe I was wrong. Maybe I could look after her instead of leaving her.

I decided to sleep and rested my head on her bed. I just hoped she would wake up by tomorrow.

Raehee POV

"NO! I HATE YOU! I TOLD YOU NOT TO!" I screamed crying and hitting him on the chest. I tried hard pushing him away. My punches grew weaker as I collapsed and cried into his chest.

"You don't mean that. I know you don't mean that."

"Why.. why would you do that?" He said in almost a whisper.

"Look at me." He said as he tucked my hair behind my ear. I looked down still in shame. How embarrassing this was for me.

"I can't."

"No. You can. Please.."

I slowly lifted my head with tears still flowing down my cheeks. But he wasn't there. Nothing was. Everything was dark.
 
"Well then change them. I don't want to be near you if your going to be like this; just go..." Taehyung suddenly appeared. His face angry and dark.

"T-Taehyung. I-I'm sorry." I said. But he just dissolved in front of me as I felt water around me. I was drowning and I felt myself drifting until I hand reached out. It felt so real. I was being pulled out as a voice spoke.

"I- I know you probably hate me. I know that maybe I did something wrong. But believe me when I say this. Don't ever think I don't care. Even when I push you away. Even when I act jealous. I still care. I know you feel hurt by something and I know this isn't just about the post. Even if you never want to speak to me, just know I still love you.."

He still loves me?

It was dark again. My eyes were closed but they were watering. I let the tears fall as they slowly opened. I looked up seeing a light above me. I turned my head to see Taehyung sleeping on my hand.

I slowly moved my hand from underneath hoping I wouldn't wake him up.

I lifted my hand and moved it closer to his cheek and held his face in my hand feeling the warm of his cheek.

"You stupid stupid boy. How could you love me?" I whispered to myself. I moved it towards his hair and just played with it, brushing it away from his face with my hand.

I slowly moved my hand away but I felt something grip my wrist. I looked to see it was Taehyung.

"Don't." Taehyung said still laying on the bed with his eyes closed. I didn't know how to react I just looked at him laying there and his grip on me.