Good 4 U || Jennie (SEQUEL TO HAPPIER)

6

I decided to leave and live at the school's dorm for a little time. I brought my dog, too. The receptionist was really surprised. I asked for a roommate, and she asked if there was anybody specific I was looking for. I asked if Hana had a roommate, she said no, so I decided to give someone surprise.

The new dorms had an elevator, so I went up to the first floor from the ground floor.  Our room was number 54. The new dormitory was a modern building connected with the school. The boys and girls weren't separated. I twisted the key in the lock and walked inside the room. 

" Surprise!" I waved.

Hana was sitting on the white sofa, covered in a black furry blanket. She already decorated her side of the room with BTS and Fall Out Boy posters. She rolled her eyes and packed away her things from my bed. I pulled out the curtains immediately.

" Stop!" She groaned angrily.

" You need some sunshine." I grinned.

" Fuck, you're so annoying." She said. She let her hair out from her ponytail and sat down on her bed, staring out of the window.  After I packed away all my things, I put a baby pink blanket on my bed and sat down. " What about getting to know each other?" I asked. " I suppose you don't know me. Tell me about your family life, interests..."

"Why did you come here, just to annoy me or...?" She raised her brows with a scoff.

" I lost my friends." I said. " Basically."

" Why am I not surprised?" She nodded.

After a few days, we got closer. She still didn't like me too much, but it wasn't like I expected her to do os. She was my only friend at that moment.

During that time, the boys came back to Korea and they showed up at the college. Seeing Jimin again woke up the feelings I used to have for him, but then I remembered. I had no chance, so I just brushed them away. I said hi to him, but he didn't see me.

There was a class in which Jimin sat down next to me,  since there wer no other seats left. He didn't talk to me, it felt almost like back in 2016 when we were on bad terms. After classes ended, I went to the company to practice my solo. In the dance practice room there was my producer. It was awkward once again. 

" Hi." I said. I settled down in the practice room. I was wearing black cargo pants and a black long-sleeved crop top.

" How was your day?" He asked while doing something on his computer.

" Horrible." I said. " Everybody hates me."

" I don't hate you. " He told me.

" Good to know." I nodded and I sat down next to him on the sofa.

" You seem so sad, cheer up." He laughed.

" I'm just tired of drama."  I sighed. " I feel disappointed in myself, but at the same time... I think it's time to show who I really am and be more confident. But I don't know how, I don't know what is that I'm doing wrong. "

Suddenly Rosie walked inside the dance practice room, she put her bag down and sat down on the floor giving us a disgusted look. I let out a sigh.

" I'll leave." He told me and gave me a soft smile. He left the room, and closed the door. I was left alone with Rosie. She looked really angry.

" What?" I asked.

" I thought you realized where you went wrong, yet, see what you're doing. " She told me. " He is seventeen years older than you. "

" I don't care." I shrugged.

" You're going too far." She shook her head. " He doesn't love you, you don't love him, you guys both just want attention. "

" It's none of your business what I'm doing. " I said.

" Right." She nodded." I thought we were friends, I see I was wrong."

" I don't want to be friends with someone who constantly makes me seem like the bad one. " I shook my head." Jimin doesn't talk to me anymore either. Are you happy?"

" I'll be happy if you admit that you're making a big mistake. " She told me.

" Really? " I laughed." You know, at least I have what I wanted."

" You didn't get Jimin." She shrugged. " What are you gonna do about that?"

" I don't feel like that anymore." I said.

" You do, you still do. " She nodded." You love him, you're just hopeless because you know he loves someone else. And guess what? You will never get him. "

" You don't know that. " I shook my head.

" He wanted Jungkook since he first saw him, so shut the fuck about me not knowing anything." She told me and stood up, walking closer to me." What if you'd find out he's gay, what would you do about that? "

" I'd accept that." I said.

" Yeah?" She laughed." You said the same thing when he said he wants to be himself. You made him feel bad, because you told him that you liked his fake self better. You didn't want to accept that he was happy, with his boyfriend. You really think he still loves you?"

" Maybe. " I shrugged.

" He doesn't. " She shook her head." He never loved you. "

" How do you know that?' I said.

" When you thought we weren't talking after you guys first broke up, we actually were." She shrugged. "  He only dated you because you wanted it."

I didn't say a word, I just looked away. I couldn't hold eye contact with her. Even though she was younger me, I always feel a bit threatened as she was taller than me.

" The truth hurts doesn't it? " She asked.

" I'm glad all of you just used me." I said.

" We didn't use you." She told me. " We all adored you, but you've gone too far."

" I'm going to find new friends then." I shrugged.

" Good luck with that." She said." At this point, I don't think anybody would want to be your friend. "

" What am I doing so wrong?" I shook my head.

" I told you, you have to figure it out yourself." She told me. " I can't help you."

" Let's talk about something else." I said, sitting down on the floor silently. " Where are the others?"

" They decided to take a little break, until things get better. " She shrugged.

We couldn't practice our dances by only being the two of us, so I did Solo and after a few ones Rosie left. I also decided to go back to the dorm earlier as I wasn't feeling well.