Good 4 U || Jennie (SEQUEL TO HAPPIER)

9

When I woke up, the others were already awake. I quickly dressed up and then just went home, I said goodbye to the two boys, not like they really cared anyways. I took the subway to get to the dorm, and before I went back, I bought some food for later. It was early, so there weren't too many people in the hallways. I quickly went upstairs, and I could hear the sounds of my footsteps on the quiet hallway.

The door unlocks with a code, so I typed that in and then I opened door, walking inside the room. Hana was in her bed, with all the curtains pulled in as usual. I thought she was sleeping, so I just put my things down on my desk and started unpacking my bag.

" Where were you?" Hana asked.

I turned around and gave her a smile, seeing that now she was standing in front of her bed with crossed arms. She was wearing an oversized dark brown t-shirt as her pajamas.  " Why so interested?" I grinned.

" I worried my ass off." She said. " You didn't answer my calls."

" Well, I didn't hear them." I shrugged.

" Next time tell me if you won't be here for the night." She told me.

" You're not my mom." I rolled my eyes and took off my t-shirt and bra. I looked through the pile of clothes next to my bed on the floor and took out a sports bra.

" That doesn't mean I wasn't worried." She said. " So where were you?"

" I had a project with Jimin to do." I said as I changed my pants into a pair of leggings. " And I slept at his  grandparents' house."

" Uhum..." She nodded.  " Where are you going now?"

"  To the gym." I told her as I tied my hair up in a ponytail and washed my makeup off. " By the way, just to inform you, tomorrow I'm flying to London to shoot my solo music video. I have a free ticket if you'd like to come."

" Yeah, I'd rather pass that if you keep this attitude towards me." She said.

" I don't have an attitude!" I told her.

" Mhm, right." She nodded. " Just go, I don't want to deal with this shit early in the morning."

I rolled my eyes, grabbed my purse and walked out from the room, going downstairs. I decided to get a bottle of water from the vending machine in the hallway, I threw in my money and waited for the water bottle to fall down but it got stuck, so I thought hitting it a couple times would work, but it didn't so I got angry.

" Do you need any help?"

I heard a familiar voice from behind me, I turned around and saw the guy that I slightly used to like in February. Kai.

" Oh, it got stuck." He looked at the vending machine and did a few things to it, managing to make the bottle fall down. He reached for it and gave me it.

" Thanks." I said, wanting to leave but he kept talking to me.

" Perhaps we could meet up someday." He told me. " Just you and me, dinner, talk, what do you think?"

I hesitated for a couple of seconds, but I really needed somebody in my life, so I accepted the offer. " Yeah." I smiled and turned my head back. "But I have a boyfriend, so I'd pass that."

" Well, if you change your mind, the offer is still up." He winked and walked away.

I left out a big sigh and headed to the gym. I put on my headphones, turned on some music and stepped on the treadmill. Later I did some stretching, and when I was done, I went back upstairs and took a shower.  I immediately told Hana about this date.

" And do you like the guy?" Hana asked.

" I mean, I used to..." I shrugged. " He's very attractive."

" For sure." Hana sighed. She seemed kind of low-spirited.

" Is anything wrong?" I sat down next to her on her bed.

" Just a crush." She said. " I realized that the girl is interested in someone else, and that person is so much better than me. It just broke my heart because I thought something could happen between her and I."

" Well, then in this case you deserve someone better." I told her. " Someone who truly loves you."

" Have you ever met someone..." She started. " Who is just that fucking perfect. And maybe they aren't perfect to everyone, and have their mistakes, but you know that they are just absolutely amazing?"

" Yeah." I said.

" Jimin, right?" She answered.

I sighed. " It hurts now that I found the truth out so late, but a part of me doesn't want to let go, even if I know there's no fucking way I'll get him." I said. " So, I'm starting to accept it."

She put her hand on top of mine, and her fingers slowly traveled under my palm. " You'll get through it." She told me.

" I guess." I sighed and tilted my head to the left, staring at the floor. " It's me who you were talking about, right?"

" Huh?" She asked.

" Your crush." I told her and turned my head back to her. " It's me, right?"

" How do you know?" She looked away.

" I just guessed, and I was right." I said.

She wanted to say something, but I pulled her face closer to mine, we were staring in each other's eyes for a couple seconds, then I kissed her. It was my first kiss with a girl and I knew I was in trouble, since I liked a guy but I knew that either one of them that I'd choose, I'd break the other's heart. 

When we pulled away from the kiss, she teared up and I hugged her. " I'm sorry, Hana." I said. " I don't want to hurt you, really."

" No, it's okay, you are dating somebody else." She sighed. " I'll get through it."

" How could you even fall for me?" I laughed.

" Because I just did." She shrugged. " I don't know, slowly."

" Come with me to London, please." I told her.

" Why would you want me there?" She asked. " I'm just this weird goth girl who likes you and you know that all this gives me hope, and I know you want to make me happy but in the end somebody is going to get hurt, and that's going to be me."

" I need you there to support me." I said. " I don't have anybody."

" Okay." She said. " Thank you for the invite."

" Anytime." I said and kissed her cheek. " Now don't cry, we're going to have a great time."

My mind was complete confusion. Did I like two people or what was going on? I liked Kai, but I didn't know him perfectly. And then there's Hana, who's someone who deserves all the love in the world, but I was still unsure about my feelings for her. Maybe I'll find out later who I want to be with.

" Uh, tell your dog that my shoes are not his food." She said and pointed at my dog who was chewing on Hana's boots.

" Kuma!" I groaned and grabbed my dog, trying to get the boots out from his mouth and putting them somewhere where he won't reach them.