Across Sea Love

Despair Goodbye

It's so hard making this drive to the airport today. Just seven days ago I was so excited about getting to meet Kia for the first time. Spending every waking moment together experiencing things I would have never did. Now its all coming to a end. I'm driving the speed limit but how I wish i could go slower. I'm dreading reaching the airport. I don't want this to end. How am I going to be without her after this? Will i go back to waiting on phone calls, text messages and video calls? Would I be able to handle it now since I had a sample of all that. We arrived at the airport, I take the deepest breath ever fighting to hold tears back as Kia takes her luggage from the trunk of my car. The walk to the check in seems to go by so slowly. Finally she is ready to leave me, ready to walk away ready to board a plane and go miles away from me once again. Jesus help me, I feel like my world is ending. She turns to me and says "Well I guess this is the good-bye part, but only for now baby we will be together in each others arms again soon". Tears start rolling down my cheek as she holds me close to her, I can't stop crying saying "I'm going to miss you like no other baby". I held her tighter than before at the sound of the announcer saying boarding flight to Detroit, she pulls away from my embrace. She walked away and my heart fell into my stomach. I feel a part of me leaving my body, it's a feeling despair. I can feel the silence and loneliness and it's only been a minute, I dont know what to do I'm at a loss.....