Across Sea Love

Big Decisions

We made it back to America and yes our honeymoon was FUCKING AMAZING!!! I thought a wedding in the Bahamas was life but then noooo, my wife surprised me with a honeymoon in Hawaii! Yes! Hawaii and OMG it was everything! We ate great food, saw beautiful sights, and ofcourse we made love everywhere we could. Now its back to the real world though. To me it still seemed like a fairytale. We came to a point in our relationship, where we decided to have kids. I desperately wanted to give them to her, so like any other married lesbian couple we decided to go through IVF treatments. After our first round of the treatment, we found out we were pregnant. Telling her I was pregnant was the best feeling ever. Seeing her put together baby things warmed my heart. She was so cute, her excitement was so beautiful. I can't wait to see her hold our baby for the first time. I know this will make her the happiest!

It was 6 months into our pregnancy when Kia does what she always do, take me out for dinner. I'm not sure what really happened but we got into a heated argument, leading us to storm out the restaurant. While heading home I knew something wasn't right. We fussed and argued the whole way home. This was OUR first really heated argument. I wanted to calm her down but I was too angry. I must say though, she looked so damn fine mad. I wanted to kiss I didn't bother to. Soon as the truck came to a stop at our house, I jumped out, ran into the house and hopped straight into the shower. I was hoping the hot water that was beating against my body would calm me down. It did a little. I stepped out of the shower wrapped in my towel. I sat on the bed thinking something isn't right. I thought to myself and at that moment a gush came from my body, running down my legs. I placed my hand between my legs to see what it was. When I pulled my hands from between my legs, it was soaked with blood. Kia walked into the bedroom at the same time. All I heard from her was "Omg baby what's wrong"? I was stunned, I couldn't move, I couldn't speak. Kia lifted me from our bed and rushed me to the hospital. I arrived to the hospital quickly. They ran all type of test to make sure the baby was ok. The doctor entered the room and told us that we lost our baby. That was the worst day in my life. My heart sunk into my stomach. I bust out crying, I couldn't stop the tears from falling. I've failed the one person I vowed to make and keep happy. I couldn't carry our baby. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't even look her in the eyes. I could feel her pulling away from me. It was a hard pill to swallow. We spoke less and less with each passing day. Our love begins to fades....