Life Of Passion

Chapter 10

Nancy bridge was kind of long and abandoned. We would probably catch her walking. I looked down at my phone Kano was blowing me up. He's unimportant right now. Seems like he went to my apartment. Sighing, I turned my phone off.

Law looked at me then back at the road. Crazy he never really says anything when he knows it's Kano.

"That's her, Stop! Stop!" He hit the breaks. I got out the car quickly running to her. Zadie was standing on the edge of the bridge looking down. "Zadie baby, what are you doing?" Sniffing, she looked up at Lawrence and I. Her face was red and wet from crying. Probably her heart out.

"I'm stupid Passion...You we're right he doesn't even love me!"

I shook my head slowly trying to walk to her. "But I love you Z. Please come down.." I saw her hands tremble as she turned around. Looking back Lawrence was on the phone with the police. Most likely trying to get an ambulance out here. "Stay back! Or I'll jump I swear to god!" I stopped in my footsteps.

Before I could think twice on taking another step Law had my arm telling me to listen. "You don't understand how I feel!" She started to cry again. My heart thumped out of my chest. My nerves were bad. I..I just wanted her to come down.

"Tell me how you feel Z..."

The wind blew causing her to move hair from her face. I never thought my sister would go this far. I didn't think it was this bad. "He lied to me, I thought he loved me. All you ever do is take care of me and I can't do shit right. I'm always alone and  you're never home. Then this." She put a hand on her stomach.

"Admit it. You never saw me Passion only saw through me...you can't help me.."

Zadie looked like she was losing it and I didn't have a second guess that she wasn't. She was sixteen and pregnant. I snapped on her about every little thing and I was never home. She was right. The only thing she was wrong about was that I couldn't help her.

"I can help you..I can j-..just come down.."

I had started crying too. I live with her everyday and didn't know she felt like this. I yanked my arm away from Lawrence. Our heads snapped to the sirens in the distance. Zadie shook her head again. "No..you can't.." I could feel her pain. Right now all I wanted to do was hug her because she's wrong, so wrong.

"Please, I can help you. I'm sorry for calling you dumb. I'm sorry for yelling at you. Zadie I'm sorry."

"Me too." My heart dropped to my stomach as I watched her lean back. I ran to catch her, but it was too late. I'm always too late. Every time I ever saw my little sister's face started to flash in my head. There was a loud thud and...I could see her. At the bottom staring at me dead on the rocks.

"Noo! Noo!" I tried to climb over, but Lawrence held me down. No matter how many times I tried. My body shook as I cried in his arms.

I felt so numb. "What happened?" The first ambulance and police men asked the moment they pulled up. Lawrence pointed then picked me up bridal style. They looked over and I could hear the officers talking into their walkie talkies. Carrying me to the car he put me in the passenger seat.

"What are you doing?! I'm not going anywhere!"

He tried to start up the car. Putting a hand on mine, it might have been for comfort. I just didn't want that right now. "There's nothing you can do. You want to watch them bring her body up?" It made me burst into tears again. I felt so alone. I lost everything I had in this world.

Watching as we pulled away, everything in me didn't want to go.

I felt like she was still alive and still on the edge of the bridge. Like I could still help her. I didn't go home because of Kano. I also didn't tell Lawrence that was the reason. He took me too his house giving me clothes to wear to sleep.

Taking a long hot shower, every time I closed my eyes it played back in head. Her falling over and over and over again.

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It's four am. Law woke me up because he said I was crying in my sleep. I believe it. Holding me he just kept saying, It's okay and it's going to be okay, but I felt like it wasn't. I literally felt like my world was coming to an end. "I have no one now." I whispered  while I was snuggled into his chest. It was comforting for my body at least.

My mind was still active.

"You have me, I got you." It might've been a moment of weakness, but I kissed him. He kissed back caressing my side and pulling me closer. One thing led to another and next thing I knew I was on top, riding my pain away. Every time he groaned It turned me on more.

"Ahh, Passion..Damn baby.." was what he groaned in my ear as we he pulled me to him and we started to grind on each other. This was a different type of sex from how Kano and I did it. It felt so..passionate. It also felt right. Kano has been the only one I gave my body too, but not anymore.

Running his fingers through my hair  as, I ran my hands along his broad shoulders, I could feel myself about to climax. From the sound of it he was too, he ran his tongue around my mouth making sure to kiss me long as we came together.

My body was drained and for a split second I felt okay. Then the grief came back, and it was somewhat bearable. He pulled me close, giving my forehead a kiss. I was so tired that I didn't realize me falling asleep.