Life Of Passion

Chapter 19

"Bzzzz, Bzzzz!" I just wanted that sound to shut up. Reaching on my nightstand I grabbed what I thought was my clock. Before I could look down I felt myself running to the toilet. That's the second time since last night. I hope the rest of that food is out my system.

I came out the bathroom , wiping the sweat off my forehead. I'm hot as shit. Looking down I could feel the phone vibrating over and over again. First he had a few missed calls but messages were coming in. They were from...HER AGAIN. "One down two to go.." and she winked. All that I love you shit he talks to me and he's Kano all over again.

I got in the shower to think.

I know he'll be back for his phone. I don't even want to see his face. When I got out and dressed I went downstairs to see Tommie at my island eating cereal. I put on a pot of coffee. The phone vibrated ten times in twenty minutes. "She's not even relevant to us." I took a sip of coffee. I know she not talking about me. I tried to guess his code so I could tell her about relevance.

Failing, I got locked out for one minute.

"You can stay as long as you want." I put the phone down finally looking up at her. She was dressed. Seems like she had clothes in that book bag she came with. "It's okay, no need to replaced Zadie with me." I have a look of confusion. Jumping off the stool she put her bowl in the sink.

"I don't want to be late for school." She slung her back pack over one arm.

"Want me to take you?" I offered. Tommie stared at her phone and agreed. She could never replace Zadie and I would never do that. Looking over she forcing herself to stay up. Had bags under her eyes, and yawned every couple of minutes. Why didn't I notice last night?

"Do you get any sleep?"

Tommie yawned again rubbing her eyes. "Not since my dad got out three days ago." Fidgeting in her seat to get comfortable, I could tell. "Grandma let him stay since he had nowhere to go. When I was little he did things to me and now that he's out I can't sleep, just in case he tries to come in my room in the middle of the night.."

"Why don't you tell your grandma?" She shook her head no. "That's her baby boy." I put my hand on hers as we pulled up to the school. "Ima leave my door unlock and blankets out, in case you want to come back today." Tommie thanked me for the ride then headed into the building.

How could someone's father do such a thing? I honestly felt for her. I know she's tired and have no doubt she would be back tonight.

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My stomach been killing me all afternoon.

I'm hungry as can be so, I got myself a pickles and peanut butter. I was craving them all day. I was enjoying them too until there was a knock at my door. It was the one and only. "I think I left my phone yesterday baby." Looking him up and down I walked back over to the couch. "What's wrong?" Tossing it over my shoulder, It landed a few inches away from his feet.

Yeah, I threw that shit carelessly.

"Passion it's not what you think." Putting peanut butter on my pickle I took a bite out of it staring at the tv. "It never is." I rolled my eyes. "Just get out. Go enjoy night two and three." I don't want to fight , hear explanations, nothing. I'm not in the mood. I been there done that. Lawrence won't take the little bit of sanity I was holding onto.

He walked over viewing me , the peanut butter and pickles.

"You okay?"

I looked up. His whole body was blocking my view. Anything looked better than him right now. "Why are you still here? Didn't I tell you to leave? Go be with Morgan." I stood up turning , I felt him grab my hand. Snatching away I continued to the kitchen. "Damn Passion just listen! I made a mistake. She came to my house, I was drinking."

The whole time I still had a piece of pickle in my hand.

Putting a finger up, I ate it rather quickly. "Whoa whoa, Put it down yo!" I had gotten the butcher and had it pointing at his throat. "You was drunk so you thought what? This a valid explanation to fuck? You don't think I'm tired of going through shit like this?!"

Crying I used my wrist to wipe one of my eyes.

"I blacked out. I don't even remember it Passion. I just kept trying to get her to leave.." I squinted, not knowing if he was lying or not. That story sounds like bullshit, but I don't think he would lie to me. Or has he already? "Last chance, Get. Out." I whispered cutting his chest. He held it looking at the blood on his hand.

"You cut me? I didn't sleep with that bitch!"

"Find someone else to dance with you in three days!" Tommie came creeping in as he left. "Are you okay? Is this a bad time?" My head was pounding, my hands scrambled for a cup. Filling with tap water I downed it quickly with a pain pill. "I'm fine, couch is all yours. You hungry?" She smiled a bit. I haven't seen that in a minute.

"No, just tired. Can I sleep in Zadie's room?"

It looks like the car talk actually made a break through. "Sure." Feeling faint I decided to lay down and rest. "You sure you okay?" Tommie's voice faded as everything went black.

My eyes opened causing me to jump up. "It's okay! It's okay!" Tommie pushed me back down. I end up here every time. I remember fainting, and Tommie saying something. "Did you call Lawrence?" She shook her head. I sighed in relief looking at the ceiling. Thank GOD. He's the last person I want to see right now.