Life Of Passion

Chapter 11

I didn't sleep long and was up before Lawrence. I made us coffee and the news was on. Of course my sister was all over it. I took a sip watching Lawrence turn it off. "You're up I made you some." I handed him a cup.

Scratching his head he thanked me. I didn't even notice he was only in his briefs.

"You sure you don't want to get back in bed it's okay." I shook my head. I cant dwell in my own greif. That's how you let it eat you up alive. "I have things to do today. Plan my sister funeral, go to the club to see about a few days off..." I finished, putting my cup into his sink.

Law put his coffee down to hug me from behind.

"There's no rush Passion. It's okay to mourn." Brushing him off I turned to lean against the counter. "I am mourning every second every minute. Last night...was a moment of weakness you know? I..just need time." Nodding his head, he back off picking up his coffee again. I looked at his chizzled chocolate abs.

Shaking my head from those nasty thoughts, I grabbed my jacket.

"See you at practice later?" Lawrence looked as If he was confused. "Uh..yeah." And with that I headed out. I told him I was going to plan my sister's funeral but really I wasn't ready yet. I just needed time alone. So, I went there. Back there. To the bridge. It was cold maybe because it was still morning.

I looked over the edge getting spooked I backed up.

Could've sworn I heard her voice. "I could've helped you Z..." climbing onto the edge I sat down. This was her view when we first pulled up. Closing my eyes I felt her presence. I took a breath in. "I love you baby girl." Pushing off I just wanted to be with her, but then I felt a hand strongly grab my whole arm.

"Let go!" Law had me.

My small body was dangling in the air. He forcefully started to pull me back up no matter how hard I fought for him to lose grip. "What is wrong with you?!" I hit the concrete scrapping my elbow. Did he not get it? I don't want to be here. "She's gone don't you see?!" I pushed Lawrence as hard as I could.

No one asked him to come out here and save me.

How did he even know I was here? He had to have been following me. "Why you on dumb shit?" It's not his job to protect me. I never had a Mom or Dad, a real birthday, or boyfriend. Then here he comes being all nice and shit.

"What do you want? Why won't you leave me alone?"

"I care about you. Why the fuck else?" I could hear the aggravation in his voice. I rolled my eyes trying to climb onto the edge again. Grabbing me again this time he dragged me to the car putting me inside. I tried to get out, but the child lock was on.

"Ever since I saw you dance..there's something about you..I can't stay way..don't give up on yourself. I told you I got you."

I looked at him, not bothering to say a word. Not like I had any other choice now. What does he mean he can't stay away? "Take me home please." He did just that. Made me tea and watched movies with me all day. Even told me I couldn't go anywhere today. That's fine for now. My body needed rest.

~•~

"Where you going?" I looked up at Lawrence as he put on his jacket. Explaining that his Mom called saying she might have cancer too. This couldn't be at a better moment. "I'm going to fly to New York to be there while she gets a cat scan." I nodded my head. I understood. His Mom is more important than me.

"Go pack for three days."

Sitting all the way up I asked him for a repeat. "I can't trust you so, go." I didn't put up a fight. Doing as told I packed a bag. I didn't need a whole suit case. I mean we were only going for three days. Coming back downstairs Law insisted on carrying my bag.

He was such a gentleman.

~•~

"I never actually been on a plane before." I admitted as we did what the captain said. He smiled tightening the seatbelt for me. "You'll be fine." Placing a kiss on my lips I looked out the window. The flight hasn't taken off yet, but it will soon. I'm just new to all this.

I looked down at my phone. Kano had called me over eighty times. Left at least thirty messages. Saying how sorry he is about Zadie.

I just didn't want to talk about hat right now. This was my mini escape. When I get back I can deal with reality. Lawrence took my phone out of my hand, turned it off then put it in his pocket. I gave him a fake and quick smile before looking back out of the window.

When the plane took off it was kind of scary so, I didn't hesitate to reach for Law's hand. He found it cute but I was honestly nauseous. "I just learned I'm scared of heights." Reaching over, he closed my window.

Then tapped my hand twice. "No more views for you. Just breathe only a hour left." Zadie would have loved to get on the plane. She like things like this.

"One time Zadie and I was at a fair and we got on the fairs wheel. I almost fainted but, she loved the view. She went home and drew it and it looked EXACTLY like what we saw."

Lawrence smiled.

"She looked talented. My Dad use to make sculptures out of things he could find. You'll see when you get to the house." Putting my head on his shoulder, I closed my eyes.