Dogs

28.

Youngjae

I woke every few hours, JB still focused on the screen in front of him each time, my body shutting down just as the sun rose.

I rubbed the sleep from my eyes as I woke, my legs having straightened itself as I slept, my body along the length of the sofa.

I stretched slightly before remembering that I was still in the studio, realising that JB's hoodie was draped over me. His broad shoulders blocked the screen from this angle as he continued to click here and there, absorbed in what he was doing.

I propped myself up to see that he had thankfully finished his food, still fully focused on the screen despite pulling an all nighter.

I stood his side and waved at him, his red rimmed eyes finally looking up at me. He tugged his headphones off tiredly, giving me a small smile as he stood.

"Did you sleep at all Bummie?" I frowned worriedly, cupping his face in my hands.

"Later. It's about done" he mumbled tiredly. He looked like he was barely hanging on, his body rocking slightly.

"Why is it so important?" I sighed, hugging him to me. My heart ached at how worn out he look, worried for his health.

"I have to. Just another hour. Please" he mumbled, pulling away from me.

I released him with a frown, scanning his eyes to see how serious he was before nodding.

"Promise me you'll rest after this" I pled.

"I promise Jae" he smiled, pressing a kiss to my cheek before turning back to the computer.

I took my toothbrush and soap, getting in a quick shower before heading to the cafeteria to get some food for us, the area so quiet as it was still too early in the morning.

I took my time for a good 40 minutes, not wanting to bother him and eating alone in the cafeteria before heading up, my mind still worried and filled with thoughts of JB.

He was leaning back in his chair as I returned, spinning quickly to look at me as I entered. He had shaven and showered sometime in that hour, his hair still slightly damp.

"It's done" he smiled, blinking sleepily at me.

"I brought food" I scanned his tired eyes worriedly before returning a small smile.

"I want you to hear it" he mumbled, opening his arms out to me. My feet carried me over automatically, JB shifting so that I sat in his lap.

He placed the headphones over my ears, taking the food and placing it on the table to one side.

I frowned slightly but listened to the song, JB's eyes locked to mine as he watched me for my reaction.
(Cues You Are - Got7)

The lyrics and tune made me think of our journey together, the things we've been through and the lazy days together, just staring at the clouds. His smile under the sun, under the bright lights of the stage, his warm hands always holding mine so tightly, his warmth that always made me feel so safe and loved.

He stared into my eyes the entire time, holding my hands in his, making my heart pound even faster than it already was. I felt so breathless, the entire song making me feel like I was thrown through the entire journey of us again.

He reached up to take the headphones off as the song ended, placing it to one side before turning back to me. I bit my lip, unsure of what to say or do without bursting into tears when he reached up to cup my face in his hands.

"I wrote this for you. You're my beautiful sky, my sunshine. Thank you for existing, for coming into my life and making my days better. I feel alive because of you, that the world is actually a good place" he murmured, my heart pounding even harder against my ribs. I'm going to have a heart attack at this rate.