DALLIANCE || jjk + kth

23| Breakdown

(WARNING: mention of mental breakdown,
depression and anxiety,if uncomfortable don't read this chapter )

This was one of the moments where Taehyung didn't know what to do. His head was hurting like a bitch,it felt like someone was smashing his head with hammer repeatedly. Taehyung was already in deep thoughts of his. He realised how he never gets into commitment with anyone,when he had the chance he lost it,he still hates himself for that day and it kills him.

Jeongguk,the most precious and special person to Taehyung, was hurt multiple times just because that guy wanted to be inlove and Taehyung was one of the reasons. That day was a nightmare,he lost his bestfriend of years just like that,he should have expected it the moment they started to fuck with eachother. Now that Jeongguk is with Taehyun, all he wants to do is snatch him away from him. He knows it's wrong,they have already kiss,that makes him come to conclusion that Jeongguk and Taehyun aren't going that great as Jeongguk was willing when they kissed.

Though he regrets it,no matter what,he should not have kissed Jeongguk since Younger is still in a relationship, all he knows is he can be a reason why another relationship will be broken up. He doesn't want to come inbetween those two...but he wants Jeongguk and he will achieve him,he is not some prize that Taehyung can achieve but he is a guy who Taehyung would never fall out of love with.

Ever since he had that talk with Jeongguk about Namjoon he doesn't know what he should do. Except he just feels bad for his self and make the guilt eat him up. The one time he thought he was gonna move on,someone tells the guy he is dating is a piece of shit. Namjoon,the perfect guy from outside,is a manipulative guy. Taehyung hasn't seen his real colours yet but Jeongguk won't lie to him,what will he achieve by that anyway. That makes him think that only person he will ever be inlove with is Jeongguk and Jeongguk will never be with Taehyung.

Taehyung wants to cry if he is being honest. His heart is feeling so heavy at the moment and his head is just hurting so bad. His body is killing him. It feels really bad and he is extremely anxious, all because of the tension he is taking. The stress of how nothing is working out. His bestfriend is moving further away from him,his lover is with another guy and the guy he is going out with is a bastard. He feels tears prickling from his eyes.

"Why the fuck am I so miserable?!" Taehyung says to himself while crying. Taehyung doesn't even realise he was heaving a mental breakdown. His breath quickened and it was so fucking hard to breath all of a sudden.

Taehyung was taking heavy breathes. He put his hands on his chest,trying to calm himself down but it wasn't working. Taehyung knew he shouldn't have let the stress get to his mind since he is really sensitive and this makes it really hard for him. He takes everything to heart. His mental breakdowns are always the hardest for him as they are rare but when they come,Taheyung couldn't stand it. Taehyung has been so low in mentally state from past few days. He can't seem to sleep after that sleepover. He has been terribly anxious and really depressed.

Taehyung quickly took his phone,his breathing was getting stuck and it was really hard for him to breath openly,as much as he trying to calm down but it wasn't working. He went to calling app and quickly tapped into whoever contact came in view. He saw it was Jeongguk. Good,Jeongguk has been with Taehyung before, he could calm him.

But the sad thing was Jeongguk wasn't picking up.

"The contact you have been trying to contact is unavailable at the moment,please call back later" this was all he heard and it made him want to cry more.

He went back and quickly searched for SeokJin's name. The contact popped up and as he touched his contact,the call went by.Not so soon after,the call was finally picked up.