how to not die alone(on hold)

music in a dark room

im humming
in the quiet
and my voice is the same
why is there a muffler in my mouth

i dont want it like that

and then im thinking
but theres silence
because my mind hit a wall
then crawled like broken eggs to the floor

i dont want it to look like that

in the yolks my reflection
nothing, blurry, i cant concentrate
and my eyes unfocus so the carpet is clean
im still there but i dont know where that is anymore

i dont want it to be like that.

then im standing and its empty
but its breaking out my ribs
but theres nothing and im thoughtless and
i dont want to be like this

//nah this one isnt even ok