'Til next year ||Shawn Mendes||

chapter 14

Warning!! I'm not sure if some might get uncomfortable but I need to warn you that there's mention of anxiety in this chapter, so be careful! :)
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"WHAT!?" Olivia and i exclaimed in union.

"He didn't tell you!?" He asked hesitantly.

"How come i never knew this!? My poor baby" olivia squealed placing her hand over her heart.

"Why?" I asked heart broken.

"Well no one knows but his family and us, it usually happens before he goes on stage. His anxiety kicks in every time even though he keep telling us he's okay. He's so closed about this subject. But now He takes a specific medicine that clam his heart race before every show, you can say it's helping him" brian told us.

To say i was about to cry was an understatement. I was in total shock. The way he talked to me, how he feels alive on stage and assist his fans with their problems. He seemed so confident and powerful to face those triggering fame problems.

Near 4 o'clock, we took the road heading to the concert but this story never stopped replaying in mind. I was feeling a mix of sadness for finding out about his struggles but also slight anger.

Why did he hide this from me? Since I opened up about my issues. Why couldn't he?

We arrived to our final location. Even though it was still early, a crowd is already standing in line in front the closed main gate.

"And you said it was too early" she nudged my shoulder rolling her eyes "it's gonna take us at least an hour and a half to get in" she replied sadly.

"Such a bump, i was hoping i could wish him good luck before the show" i said upset but i had a whole different talk than a good luck .

"Come on girls, we don't have to wait in line" Brian laughed.

"Then how are we supposed to enter?" I asked in confusion.

"From here" he pointed to behind the building. We just stared blankly at the guys before following them.

We stopped in front of the backstage entrance where Andrew was waiting. He greeted us and lead us inside after talking to the security men.

"OH MY GOD! WE ARE BACKSATGE AT A SHAWN MENDES CONCERT! PLEASE PINCH ME, AM I DREAMING?" she whisper yelled earning a harsh pinch on her upper arm.

"not literally" she pouted as i let out an evil laugh.

"Ellie, Shawn's room is down the hall if you want to talk to him" Brian approached as he sneaked his arm around Olivia's waist kissing her temple.

Okay I've seen Olivia with lots and lots of guys but somehow she and Brian fit the most together, they looked so cute.

I thanked him before walking in the direction where he pointed. I stopped at a door where a sign 'shawn mendes' was hanged.

I didn't knock first. I slowly swung the door. His back was to me as he buttoned his shirt in front of the mirror. I tiptoed my way before hoping on him. He jumped slightly shocked since he didn't sense my presence.

"Ellie, I'm so happy you could make it before the show begins. I was about to call you" he hugged me tightly.

"The guys sneaked us through the backstage entrance or else we would have probably missed the beginning" i chuckled caressing his soft cheeks.

"So are you ready to go on stage?" I asked as i traced his lips with my thumb since i felt him a bit tensed.

"Kind of nervous?" He responded scratching the back of his neck. I cupped his jaw giving him a peck on the lips.