Tae Tae In Love 😘

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Taehyung wakes up before you. He looks at your sleepy face and grins like a little school boy with love. (A/n I'm so proud of them and boy with love 😁)

Then he thinks about last night and the note book. It interests him.

Secretively he clambers out of bed. Your bed. He knows what he is about to do is wrong but it doesn't stop him.

He gets the note book and opens it. He sees a drawing first of all. There is a girl. She is crying as blood rolls from her cheek.

She has slit wrists and is fear. She looks like she is about to shatter any moment.

He can feel his heart soften. But when he flips the page, he can see part of it is stained red. Blood?

He shudders.

He starts reading the note that's written. He can see the page is crumpled in some places possibly from tears. Clearly this shit is deep.

He starts reading. A lump forms in his throat.

Sometimes I am glad I am in school. It stops me from doing bad things and even sometimes distracts me from bad thoughts. Mostly it's about death. It's always in the corner of my mind. I can't shake it no matter what I do. I can be happy but then I just get so sad. I don't know what to do.

It hurts even thinking what my family must feel if I died but I would be doing them a favour in the long run. Right?

It's not like I want to hurt anyone but I'm hurting myself everyday and every second as there isn't anything I can do. I have tried telling people and calling out but it never helps.

I'm going to die anyway, naturally or not. It doesn't matter if I kill myself or not. Life just prevents death so I would just be speeding up the process. It wouldn't be any more or less painful for my family.

Part of me hopes they care but the other part just wants them to move on and to be happy. I just can't say the same will be for me.

I used to cry myself to sleep every night but now I just don't feel anything. I want to feel emotions like I used to but I just can't. That's when I met Matthew. It was to feel again. The pain. I could feel something and something is better than nothing I guess so I will take what I can get.

As I said before, I don't want to hurt anybody but what can I do? Yes I'm being selfish but I am normally selfless and look where that got me. Why won't people let me be happy? They are the selfish ones.

I'm sorry for hurting so many people.

(Next page)

They kidnapped me. Stole me from my family. Even my father took a bullet for me when all eomma did is stand by and let him die.

She cheated on him with the guy that stole me and killed my father.

She's still family but all I will ever see her as is a stranger.

The men that took me tried to rape me. They never got close though. I would always fight them off.

They would say I'm feisty but how can they be turned on seeing me crying and scream?

Yoongi was gone away. It's been 2 years so far. 1 year and 46 days ago they had stolen me. I've finally run away.

I'm writing this incase they find me. I need somebody to find this and to remember me.

Matthew Kim my boyfriend has not helped at all. He's the reason I'm in this situation. That cheating asshole almost got me killed.

I'm sorry.

If I do die please let Matthew know I hate him.

From y/n ❤️