[HIATUS] "Proof that Loki has a heart" (Loki X Reader fanfiction)

Lost At Sea

I closed the diary and wiped my tears.

I hid back the diary under my bed and grabbed a scissor and a brush and I got out.
I was walking through the corridor watching the outside from the big windows, I missed doing that.. I rushed back in Loki's room when I heard a noise coming from the end of the corridor, I can't mess with my t-... even in my thoughts the word won't come out my teammates,  he was sitting on his chair, looking at me dead in the eyes,
« What? » I said, I started feeling embarrassed, « I was starting to forgot how beautiful were your eyes, good thing you came back » I puffed and got behind him, I runned my fingers through his hair and adjusted them and I started cutting them.

« You looked like a beggar with long hair » I don't know why I said that but I could feel that he was frustrated, He, the God Of Mischief, He waited for about two seconds before replying in a mocking tone pinched with a little bit of frustration « Well » he said in a little high pitched voice like a petty b**ch « At least I did not look like a damn vampire at.. what was the name of that... oh, yeah 10th grade or whatever that is » I stopped as the memories came back in my mind « 10th grade... »

I inspired and shortened the last remaining long hair « Did you read my diary? » I asked, he let a low nervous giggle and started playing with his fingers « I did not know it would bother you, Sorry but since you left and since I kind of missed you I tried to figure out why you did not tell me that they were taking you to- » I giggled, I did not want to speak about that « It's okay, and 10th grade was just.. awful »

I put the scissor down, I wanted to get out of here as quick as possible before he could mention anything related to these passed two months again, « Uuh.. I-I should go and- before he- I mean they see us » I walked, more like runned to the door, I opened it, glanced to him with a smile, he did not even have time to open his mouth that I got out, just to face Steve and Tony.. oh and Natasha.. and-

Actually, everybody.

We all got to the reunion room, Loki was guarded by.. I don't know the hell who, Bruce- I think.

I was lost. We have a family reunion, again. For the 100th time.

« Don't you guys have any S.T.W.M to do instead of waiting for me ? » I said in a sarcastic voice (Save The World Mission), I was panicked but I was not letting them see that, I became a pro at hiding my emotions, everyone looked so serious.

WHY SO SERIOUS ? (Sorry 'bout that)

« See!? I told you she even sounds like him! » Tony papa shouted to Steve papa, Steve papa replied, « I know! », Saint Natasha joined them « You guys calm down! » she looked at me « Y/n, tell us what happened, why did you become so distant? We don't understand we really d- »

I took a deep loud breath, everyone was looking at me, expecting a correct answer, little did they know...

« What happened ? I killed a woman, and a man that had a wife and two child, But not only them, a dozen other guys too! Whether they were human or animal, I was called a monster, I was called a laboratory rat and I was left alone in my cold and dark cell, hungry- wait, STARVING, I was tied down, They did tests on me, I vomited blood because I screamed so much that I damaged my throat, I cried until I couldn't anymore but still! »

I put my palm so violently on the glass table that it made a loud noise

« But still I hoped that my teammates would come and save me at a second or another, because that's why we are a team, I hoped that Cap would come and take me in his arms, tell me that everything was over now and that we were going home now, that's why we are a team, I hoped seeing everyone fighting for me to save me, because that's why we are the Avengers... so now you... YOU TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED FOR Y'ALL TO BE SO LATE!? »

Steve punched the glass table, a crack appeared and he shouted « THE SHIELD, Y/N! THEY ARE THE SHIEL- » I was screaming at this point « SO!? WHO THE HELL ARE THE SHIELD WHEN IT COMES TO SAVING YOUR TEAMMATE !? TELL ME !? I'M LOST! I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THIS! I'M LOST IN THIS ENTIRE SEA OF BULLSHI-»
Pepper was running bare foot to us, she fell down on her knees

« Tony, you really want to see this »

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Autor's note:

Hi, I'm back !
I know It's been a while, And I'm happy to be back and continue this -mess- story, And I, Right now, my dear friends am LOST IN THAT ENTIRE MESS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTINUE THAT.

I still have an idea, though *w I n K s iN eNdGaMe*