Impatience

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by kca3800
by kca3800
                                    
                                              Impatience
                          3rd Week of August
                          I'm done waiting.

                          I'm messaging him tomorrow.
                          I can't concentrate with him on my mind.
                          I need to get it off my chest.
                          Whether he says yes or no, I don't
                          Care.
                          Okay I care a lot.
                          But io would rather have an answer then sit around for a month
                          Not doing shit,
                          And wondering whether he already forgot me.
                          It's worth a shot.
                          I want to start school with this resolved,
                          And I won't have a break down moment,
                          The same thing that happened with Conor.
                          God I miss him so much.
                          I get why we had to go, but
                          Why was I so stupid and didn't say goodbye?
                          He was right there,
                          I had my moment.
                          But I was a coward,
                          And I let him go.
                          Fuck, why did I let him go?
                          I had no idea how much it would hurt.
                          I was so stupid.
                          Fuck.
                          His friend just followed me.
                          Right now.
                          This says something to me.
                          That some people haven't forgotten about me.
                          This makes me so happy.
                          It's not him, but...
                          It's more then I could ask for.