At Last

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by kca3800

by kca3800

I saw him.
I saw him
He was at soccer pictures.
Being a bouncer for one of the bouncy houses.
I didn't know it was him at first.
Then one of my teammates said he was here.
I could feel my heart stop, stutter.
I looked up,
And I saw him.
For the first time in 3 months,
I saw him.

And it was wonderful
Even though I never talked to him.
I never got within 10 yards of him,
I still saw him with my own eyes.
I felt whole.
Like the hole that was punched through my torso,
Wasn't ragged at the edges.
It was smooth, and it didn't hurt,
It felt numb.
But I knew that the pain would come later,
But it would be very delayed.
Like I'm feeling it now.
And it feels terrible.

But it feels like I finally had closure.
Even though we said our goodbyes
Electronically, I saw him for the last
Time. My prayer was finally answered
After three months of pain, and regret.

But this journey is now over.
I will no longer update, because even
If I see him again, it will be a long time from
Now, and I'll be a different person.
After three months I finally
Said goodbye, and let go,
Of a person, that I wish, I
Had more days with,
More numbers.
It was a privilege to
Know you Alexander Lansill.
It really was.