"Bye Chanel thanks for the ride!". "No problem, get some good sleep". She waves bye and I do the same. "Ethan, wait! I got something for you." She opens the trunk and grabs out a turn table. "Well come and get it." I grab it from her and she reaches back in and grabs a record and puts it on top of the turn table.
"I dont really listen to classical". She smiles,"I don't either it's just relaxing, plus that's a compilation album of what the classical genre offers". "Isn't this a little expensive for a gift?" " The turn table was on the sidewalk in front of my neighbor's house with some other albums but this album looked the best". "What other albums were there?" "Just some Led Zeppelin albums, but who listens to that?" "I do, I listen to that."
She shrugs, "oh well" then closes the trunk and walks back to the driver side. "Chanel, do you want to come help me set this up?" She doesn't hesitate on her response, "Sure, is it cool if I park in your driveway?" Sure go ahead, and after you're done just come inside". I head inside with the turn table and record. I kicked the door behind me.
Chanel barely parked, I hear her get out of her car, so I waited for her before I went to my room. She opened the door and awkwardly walked inside. "Hey im right here, come on". I walked into my room and left the door open. So she could find me easily. She finds me laying down,"Nice place Ethan". "Thanks it's just me and my mom here".
"So, Chanel do have experience with these things?" "Yeah I actually do". "Then do your magic woman!" She moved the record off the turn table and put the turn table on my desk. She plugged in the power cord. She looks at me, "pass me the record". I get up from my laying position and pass her the record. "That's it?". "Yup, its ready to go". She unsleeves the vinyl and places it on the turntable. I see her bite down while she guides the needle to edge of the record. "And that's it, my work here is done". "Why is there no sound?"
Chanel looks at me, then she looks around the turn table. "Ohhhh, we need speakers to connect to the turn table." "Well... I don't have any spare speakers, so I guess no music for us." She gives me a deep stare. It makes my heart pound. She is thinking, but her stare isn't matching problem solving thoughts. Her stare is lustful. My heart punches against my ribcage. I don't need this, my corrupt mind can't handle a new connection.
"Ethan, come here". Her lustful voice and erotic stare pulls me in. I slowly get up off of my bed, trying to match her slow and intense state. She pulls me in and places her hands on my face. We get close, so close. She pulls "Don't get too excited now". Her voice was enchanting, but I managed to let my humor break free from her trance. "I knew you were playing, I didn't even pucker up. You thought you got me." She tilted her head and broke a smile,"Come back". I solidified my face and paced back to her lips. Again she grabbed my face and we connected. A relief rushed through me. I needed this.
I pulled her in, feeling her. Enjoying her finer parts of her being. We continue this great flurry of kisses. Until we had our fill. Just as I had an instant relief, melancholy had just blitzed my mind. It felt like a weight that became heavier after every second that had just passed. "Chanel, this will never happen again". "Are you okay Ethan?" My voice becomes shaky," Im not fucking healthy. Im scared, confused, hurt and I know you can't understand what im going through.
"Ethan, you need to work something out. For yourself. Hope you get better, I really enjoyed this. I will be in touch. Friend". She walked out of my room and headed towards the door. "Bye Chanel!" I heard the door open and close. She left, because of me. Because i can't be stable. I drive people out when they want to give me more than I will ever ask. I can't keep this going. I must end my rampage.
I go to the restroom, I check the medicine cabinet for anything i can abuse. I didn't find nothing except for that asshole looking at me in the mirror. "You fucking shit! You need to fix yourself." Tears start to run from my eyes to my cheek. "Why can't you just be normal?! Why can't you just forget and move on?! Just change! Whatever it takes to be happy again!" I put my back against the wall and slide down. "I will change, for better".
