𝐎𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐙

V.

•Jyre•

We had slowly retreated from the kiss, and I looked at him before backing away out of his grasp as his eyes continue to stay planted on me.

"Does he kiss you like that and make you feel the way I do?"He asked.

I looked at him before looking away.

"Jyre! I need to talk to you about something."Monse said and I breathed lightly in relief before looking at Oscar one more time before going inside to Monse.

She took me to Cesar's room and closed the door and sat on the bed next to him.

"What did you need to talk about?"I asked.

"Nothing, we just seen you were dying out there and wanted to help."Monse said, and we heard the front door slam and I closed my eyes sighing.

"He's going out-"

"To get high and drunk I know Cesar."I said and plopped down onto the chair in his room.

"Why don't you just tell him why you left?, why don't you tell me why you left?! We needed you, Oscar and I both fucking needed you there to keep things together and you were just gone without a second glance. Like you just forgot about us like we were nothing."Cesar said as he stood and I seen the pain and anger in his eyes.

I stood up and put my hands on his cheeks and looked into his eyes.

"Cesar believe me, I know I kept thinking about you and Oscar day and night. I never forgot about you, it's just some things you don't understand right now-"

"Then help me understand! Just fucking tell me, because all this you're telling me sounds like complete bullshit!"He said with tears in his eyes and he roughly pushed my hands away.

"Cesar!"Monse said and stood and looked at him with tears in his eyes and they started to fill my own, he was right. He went through so much with people always leaving him and I fell in line just like them. If I had the choice I wouldn't have but I had to.

I sighed and left out the room going and grabbing my keys as monse grabbed me.

"Jy where are you going?"She asked.

"Don't worry about it monse, just let her leave. It's what she's good at, but hey she'll probably pop up again 10 years later, when she's 35."Cesar said with a shrug as his tears still fell.

"Cesar shut up!"She yelled.

"I'll be back monse, lock the doors and windows. Oscar and the rest of the guys will be back before I will."I said and wiped my tears, and left out getting in my car and driving off.

I drove as the wind blew onto my face drying my tears, and H.E.R played through my radio. I finally made it to the beach and got out and walked over before sitting down, and watching the water.

I sat there and started thinking and reminiscing. This is where Oscar and I would bring Cesar for his birthdays, we would just sit here and play with him. Mostly Cesar and I would play and Oscar watched with that big smile of his.

Everything that ever happened here was nothing bad, this is where everything would become better. Right now I needed the good vibes from the waves.

I love monse but I shouldn't have came back. I knew something was bound to happen, I knew I would've been bombarded with questions, but I just needed time.

10 years should seem like enough time, but I just need time to prepare myself for what's to come.

Everything will have to be put out before next month and it's going to be a sight to see.