Oh my god. My Ex is my Master.

Suicide thoughts

You know what? I don't even care if it's late. I need a drink. In a bar,alone,drinking drinks. My whisky washing away all of my sorrowful life and it works a little.

*ting *ting *ting

More messages had been sent to me but I don't read them. It's just the same:

Where are you???

Are you okay?? Let's talk.

Emily call me when you get this.

So annoying. I wish I could reply:

I'm tired. That's all.

But I can't. *sighs. oh well.
I sigh,then a bartender in front of me rubbing a cloth on the glass,asks me,"Rough night?" He says.

"Rough...I dunno,my life? You tell me how it is to be hit by a train." I say,capturing every piece of my words back in my thoughts. And I giggled a little."Only whisky won't help. Try some other things. It's on me." He says again,and I lift my head from resting it on my palm to look at him.

Up and down,and twitched a disbelief smile."You're gonna make me drunk?" I ask,and he grins proudly."That's what I work for."

"Well yea,honey,that's not gonna happen. I may say you're quite charming but no thanks," I say."I gotta take care of myself from more swallowing." The bartender chuckles and he keeps rubbing the glass,until,I give up."Okay fine two please. One of the best ones you got here." I order.

"Two strong vodka coming up." Really? Did I just do that? Now I'm really gonna be hit on my brain in the morning. Oh well. I can drink my awful memories away t'night. After I finished my whisky he gives me the order I want,then I quickly drink it. But my eyes are like almost shut,I could feel my lips moving upwards."Thanks for the...the drinks you really didn't have to." I tell and accidentally yawn in front of him,and he smiles as a welcoming one.

"Oh,are they your friends?" He asks,pointing at the door and I turn around while still holding my glass to look at them. "Oh,look who's here. The girls that I don't know anymore," I tell him and still stare at Spencer,Hanna and Aria trying to find me."And no,they're not my friends. If they are,they'd probably stop me from drinking."

"Seems like they're looking for you." The bartender says again, and I grunt turning around and lay my head on my forearms."I..need rest now. I'm done having questions on my mind and to answer them." I tell him and I think he understands,then i took a big breath and exhaled.

"Um,have you seen a drunk brunette girl around here?" I hear someone talks to the bartender."Hanna,Emily's not drunk." I hear again."Oh believe me she'd be drunk if she's anywhere near a bar or a club." I look up,not at them but to the bartender and he just raises his eyebrows to me. He points his finger to me to let the girls know and I slam my head back down."Em,is that you?" Whoever just asked me.

"No comment." I say. Then,I'm guessing Hanna is talking now."Hey,are you drunk?"

"No actually I'm sailing on my way back home of course I'm drunk why the hell would you think I'm not?" I say grumpily and they just got shook. Was it because of my tone?

"Sorry,I'm just...being such a klutz right now." I tell them and sigh,revealing my eyes and they got even more shock. I smile and they see that my eyes are bruised,mascara ruined and left a black lines down my cheeks."Yeah,don't mind that I was just sad watching a horrible movie."

"Don't lie." Aria goes over to me and rubs my back,Spencer and Hanna only stares to me. They both seem like there's something wrong."Spit it out already guys I'm tired of reading your faces and try to figure what the hell is wrong." I rambled. They sigh and Spencer sits beside me. And say the most shocking thing I've ever heard.