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Honesty and Buckeroo

Sorry I have not written in a while I have been so busy with homework and a new school I haven't been able to write anything. So what's new ummmm oh I have a couple things. For one I resented told my crush which is a friend of mine that I like like him. Well it was pretty interesting. His name is Noah and he is so sweet. He calls beautiful almost every day and comments about my new hair cut. I really like him. He recently kept bugging me for who I had a crush on at first I lied and told him it was my friend Ty. For the first time in forever I wanted to be honest with him so I told him. The thing is I never gained enough courage to tell him at school so I told him over the phone. I know the worst way to tell someone you like them but I was to scared. I finally found out what it was like to be in a guy's position telling a girl or guy they like them. It is really hard I was afraid of rejection and the fact I might lose a really good friend. As you already know I told him and we'll all ,he said was "wow, I am surprised!" Oh, that was just the best not it hurt like a bitch. Excuse me for my language. I am really upset about that no girl won't to here that really then him to not text you back after that. He still talks a little bit to me still but I don't think as much. Lesson here today is don't do what I did meaning text someone over the phone saying they like them. Not the biggest mistake of my life yet I am kind of glad it happened like this so I can see how he really thinks of me so I don't get my hopes up. It still sucks being basically rejected in no words but I won't be led on. I still like him it take me a while to try and get over him though I have a feeling that I won't. I wish that every wish we wish would come true but it's not it's apart of life. In a song I recently noticed talk about how your life is a triangle. He talked about how it goes up all nice and "perfect". Then as soon as you reach the top suddenly it all goes down. You feel crushed. Then soon you will be okay. The cycle then repeats from then on. Nothing is "perfect" in all honesty I never like the word "perfect" for it is not true nothing is "perfect".

       So today I was trying out for the drill team at my school. I got a horse named Joker mor like Buckeroo. He was black with patches of white on him. He seemed to walk funny. He was also giving my friend Cavin a hard time because he road him before me. Cavin wasn't the only one to ride him though. When I took him form Cavin he looked me in the eye and said "good luck you will need it". I pulled my suropes down and I found that they were to big so I lowered it to the lowest and well it was still to big the teacher told me that I would have to deal with that. I got on him he was pretty good except the fact that he wanted to keep moving while I was trying to get on. We walked around two times he was still very good. She told us to trot he was a pain to get him to trot when he started cantering. If anyone doesn't know what that is it it is a fast run bump one at that like a really fast trot. I told him ho and pulled back on the reigns. She told me to walk him around a couple more times while the other girl I was riding with to keep going. He calmed down but as soon as we started to trot again he started to canter. I said ho and pulled back I then walked around again. She said for me to try and trot again. So I did but he cantered again I went to stop him when he started to buck he did it twice when she told me and the other girl to switch horses. God that horse was a pain they shouldn't let us ride him. I found out he had a hoof problem and a hip problem because he is really old. The next horse I got was named Socks. I know it's a common name for a horse. He is a chestnut horse with white socks and a white blaze. He was really good. I only got to ride him for a little bit. I put him away and that was it I will find out Thursday if I made it even though I don't think I will. But it was a little fun to ride. And I get to tell my future kids when I get older of this story. Plus my friends will get a kick out of it.