The Black Rose

𝑊𝑎𝑟𝑚 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑑

i try to protect myself
by stating
i'm nothing but
a cold heart
by stating
nothing bothers me
emotionally, i'm just numb

no
i'm not
that's a lie
to protect myself
i actually don't live as
a cold hearted person

the tempting truth
something that
only my inner self knows
and thoughtfully tries to conceal

i've taught myself to use
my heart to love more inwardly
after loving outwardly
caused it to break fast
but not heal fast from
my past
my last love

i don't want my
warm heart to resume
being beat like a baseball
repeatedly
so used to the beatings
that it doesn't bruise anymore
so strong
that a simple slap
wouldn't harm
so sore that
it's trained to take pain

like a frozen river
my emotions from my heart
stopped flowing
for people that
i warmed my river for
i've created a dam to protect it

my frozen river
refrained from
flowing my feelings

tried to refrain
from my constant pain

i still decide
to give all my energy
to anyone that needs it
even if they gnaw at my heart
my heart is yet so
welcoming to warm the river