The Black Rose

𝐹𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑀𝑦 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑟

You would be there
You would disappear
You would return
You would leave again
But I still forgave you

I opened my heart for you
I let myself trust in you
I let my heart lead me to you
I watched my heart bleed for you
But I still forgave you

I watched my hero visit you
I watched my hero waste money on you
I watched my hero fake happiness because of you
I watched my hero cry because of you
But I still forgave you

I needed you my whole life
I needed you to be here
I needed you to show love
I needed you to keep your promise
I needed you to fucking care
About anyone else's feelings
Because we all need healing

You were selfish
Only considering your damn self
Never being the figure I needed

I fucking lost myself
I pushed everybody away that cared
I ran far away from love
Because you never showed me it

But I forgave you
For going to jail
For asking for bail
For breaking my mom's heart
For not being what I needed
For not knowing how to father
For not understanding affection
For not making "the last time" the last
For making me hate my past
For making me hate myself

But I still forgive you