never began | chanlix

one.

"The biggest problem wasn't you dance mistake. When you rap, it's not attractive at all. The reason why? You still can't speak Korean well, right," JYP asked.

"Yes," I replied.

"So when your rapping it doesn't sound like speaking. You won't be able to go on together. You've worked hard, you've always worked hard Felix," he said and left the room.

Everything quiet until I couldn't keep the tears in. Jisung walked over to me and hugged me. I cried into his shoulder saying how sorry I was. 

I pulled away from him as Chan Hyung walked up to us. Chan clung onto me and sobbed into my shoulder. 

"Always find me yeah. I'm not going to leave you behind, "I heard Chan Hyung say into my shoulder. 

I pulled away from him and was taken out of the room. I could hear everyone crying out in the hall. My own sobs echoed through the building as I was brought back to the trainee dorm. I saw all of my things in a new dorm with 5 other boys in it. 

One of them came up to me and gave me a hug. He pulled away and said, "I know you don't know me but I know you we all do, we just want to say we're sorry about your elimination and we'll be with you through this hard time in your life," he said and pulled me back into a hug. 

"I'm Kevin, that's Sangyeon, Sunwoo, Hyunjae, and that's Chanhee," Kevin said pointing to the others standing around us. 

"Where will I be sleeping, "I asked Kevin.

"Well we only have one extra bed and it's in my room," he said."My room only has one bunk bed while the other one has two."

Kevin grabbed one of my two bags and started walking down the hall and into a room. He placed them on the floor.

"I'll let you pick if you want the top or bottom, I don't really care which one I sleep on so I just change between the two bed once and a while," he said.

"I'll take the top bunk," I said.

"Okay, and you get this half of the closet," He said pointing to the closet door."We also only have one bathroom so if you want a warm shower I would recommend taking on really early in the morning," he said. 

I just nodded and walked out of the room. I left the dorm after telling one of the guys and took a walk out of the building and down the road. 

I walked out of the main building and outside to see someone crying on the bench in front of the building. The guy kept mumbling,"I won't leave you behind, I won't leave you behind, "over and over again. 

I sat next to him and said, "Please stop crying, it'll be all right," He didn't look up and me and continued to cry.

"I can hear him, oh God I can still hear his voice comforting me now," he cried out. At this time I recognized his voice.

"Chan hyung stop crying, I love you hyung and will never leave you, "I said and wrapped my arm around his shoulders pulling him closer. 

He looked up and me and looked surprised. I bent down and kissed his nose before hugging him tightly before I would have to let go of him and go back to my dorm.