Chan left practice early and went home. He grabbed his laptop and went to his email. He found the file Felix had sent him.
He placed the song and heard Felix's heavenly voice fill his ears as he sang the saddest song. He read the lyrics and started crying.
He left his room and grabbed the mail and saw his name. He saw Felix's small, tight, loopy handwriting on the front of the note.
He opened it carefully and a paper fell out. Chan opened it and read;
'Dear Channie,
I love you, and I know you love me. I wanted to be saved but no one noticed. They all thought I got better when in reality I had gotten worse. I'm going to miss you, but this world is something I know for certain I will never miss. The song I wrote is for Changbin, Jisung, and you. I want you to record it and if you want to, make it a 3RACHA song. I'll miss our cuddles like I missed them right after I left and came back home. I'll miss your smile. I'll miss being with you. But I love you and that's what matters, me not being there doesn't change that. So for a final goodbye, I want to say, I love you, I will always love you, I will never lose that love, and it's something I've always treasured. - love Felix.'
Chan's tears fell onto the letter and wet it smugging the letters. He held it close to his chest and fell to his knees crying.
Everyone else got home and found their broken leader. He got up and pulled Changbin and Jisung to the studio they have in the dorm. He gave them the lines Felix had distributed and stopped crying.
"Felix wanted us to do this song, so that's what we're going to do," Chan said wanting to complete the last thing Felix asked him to do.
"Felix wrote this, "Jisung asked sadly reading the lyrics. Tears formed in his eyes as he read more and more.
They recorded the song and released it for their trio 3RACHA. Chan cried for weeks, months, even a year later he cried still. Buring late nights he would think of the younger and cry. He wrote songs about him.
He visited his grave in Australia on his death day every year until he was finally put in the ground himself.
[THE END]
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never began | chanlix
FanfictionWhat if Felix never debuts with Stray Kids. What if JYP was so insistent of Felix not debuting that it happened. Felix is sent back to be a trainee. He works the hardest out of everyone in the company. He is seeking for being perfect, so he could be...
