never began | chanlix

five.

Felix redecorated his whole room. You couldn't tell it was his room anymore, nothing in the room showed his personality, rather it looked like a guest bedroom.

He doesn't leave his house let alone his room and if he does it's at night. He gets calls from Chan once every few weeks asking how he is and everything that you ask in awkward small talk. 

He saw the final line up had Minho in it which made him happy. He saw how happy they all were knowing they would be together, knowing they would have others to fall onto in the darkest of times.

Felix waited by his phone for Chan's weekly call but never got it. That is the only thing he ever looks forward too. 

His mom knocks at his door saying that a friend was there to visit him. Felix whipped away his tears and changed into a large sweatshirt and jeans. His body was thin yet he thought he was fat. 

"Felix, mate, how've you been, "Felix's friend Daniel said from the bottom of the stairs. Daniel pulled Felix's small body into his arms after not seeing his best friend in so long."I missed you," he said into his ear. 

They sat in the living room with a plate of cookies and milk on the table. Daniel looked at Felix weird when he didn't take any cookies. Felix took one and forced it down his throat while gagging at the sweetness. 

They made their way to Felix's room as his mom's bookclub arrived which went on for 3 hours and there was no talk of a book just women spreading new gossip and talking shit about other mothers.

"What did you do your room, mate," Daniel asked being taken aback at the fact that the room had no personality. 

"I re-decorated it," he said sitting on his bed.

"Oh," Daniel said missing how the room used to look and feel. Even with people in the room, it felt empty and emotionless but maybe that's because the emotion-filled boy that lives in it took the emotion away from the room. 

They talked for an hour before Daniel got a call from his brother that he needed to be home soon."Bye mate, it was nice catching up with you, maybe we can go somewhere in two weeks when schools over, "Daniel said walking out the door to Felix's bedroom. 

2 weeks is too far away for Felix to make plans for. He doesn't know what's going to happen in 2 days or a week. He doesn't even know what he's going to do in an hour.