Amnesia (Negan x Reader)

1. The Escape

It's chaos. Everything around you is pure chaos.

You've just fought off a walker and you're looking around you to find your friends from Alexandria; but everything and everyone are all becoming blurred into one big mosh pit.

There's walkers attacking people, people attacking walkers, people attacking people and you no longer have a clue about who to help first. There's grunts and screams echoing together, and it's so loud. All you want to do is cover your ears and make it stop.

You keep looking around you, trying to decipher your friends. Your ears are ringing and you can't stop panting heavily. You feel as though you are in a trance.

All of a sudden, you're snapped out of this by Michonne shaking you . "Y/N! Y/N! Are you listening to me?! We've got to go! Now!". All you can manage to reply with is a breathy "Y-Yeah."

She signals for you to follow her and you both start running  towards one of the cars furthest away from the crowd. There are a couple of walkers coming towards her and she swiftly beheads them with a swing of her sword.

There's a loud a loud 'bang!', and then another one, and another one; and that's when you realize that those noises were gunshots. Gunshots being fired in your direction. You duck slightly but keep running until you reach a tree and use it as cover. You can see Michonne hiding behind the car and she's looking back and forth between you and the gunman. You've got to get to that car immediately, but you know it won't be easy to do. And from the way Michonne is looking at you, you know she's thinking the same thing.

The gunman is quickly approaching you, and you have to decide whether it's worth the risk. The longer you wait, not only are you in grave danger, but so is Michonne. You take a deep breathe and look back at her. You think to yourself, 'she has to get out of here, she has to help the others.'

"Go! I'll find you!" you shout. Her eyes widen and she shakes her head. You can feel anger rising up inside you, you can't lose another person you care about. You shout again, "Go goddammit!" and you know she can hear the firmness in your voice. She knows how stubborn you are once you've decided on something.

She hesitantly but swiftly gets into the car, gives you one last look and drives off. That's when you start running in the complete opposite direction, towards the thick forest in front of you. You know that's not a great idea considering that all the noises from this battle is attracting even more walkers; but you'd rather be eaten by them, than be captured or killed by one of the saviors. 

You're running for what seems like forever, avoiding any walkers further away from you rather than stopping to kill them. That would take up too much of your precious and greatly needed energy and time. You finally come to a stop when you can no longer see anything around you, dead or living.

Your body feels heavy and you've barely eaten anything since the saviors took you captive a week ago. You know you need to rest and you luckily manage to find a hole just beneath a large tree trunk. It was big enough for you to squeeze in and so you begin to gather fallen tree branches, leafs and anything else you can find to camouflage your temporary hideout.  Once you are satisfied, you crawl into the tight space in the ground and finish covering yourself up.

It doesn't take long for you're body to give in and you fall into a deep sleep. Your dreams are filled with horrible images and sounds. Flashbacks to when you were held captive, the torture you endured..and the evil man with the barbed wire bat.

You're startled awake but a 'thump'! followed by a deep grunt. You're eyes widen, your body is frozen in place. You try to breathe as quietly as possible, trying to listen for whatever that noise was. You lay there in silence for what you thought was fifteen minutes, before you decide to check on what that was. You remove some of your cover and have a good look around you. It looks like the coast is clear, so you get out of your hideout and stand up for a better look.

You turn around to look behind you, your eyes scanning through the trees and tall grass. Your eyes finally settle on something you thought was..out of place. As you squint, your vision becomes clearer and you realize that it's shoe. A black boot in particular.

You start walking towards it with caution. You grab a small branch for protection, as you have no idea of what could be hiding there. As you get closer, you can see that's it's not just a shoe. It's actually a body. A body of a man. He's laying still on the floor, his arms sprawled out and his head is turned away from you. 'Is he dead?' you think to yourself.

You start walking around the body, to get a better look of his face. You're horrified when you realize who it is. You suddenly forget how to breathe, panic overcomes you and you want to start running as far away from him as possible. But you don't. Your legs won't budge and you can't stop staring at his face. That's when you realize that he's still breathing. You also notice blood on the top of his arm and you wonder if he's been bitten. Curiosity takes over you and you start walking towards him to get a better look. As you inspect the wound, you come to the conclusion that it's not a bite, but in fact from a gunshot. You scan over his body for other injuries, but that's the only one you can see.

You can feel yourself start to well up, tears forming in your eyes. Flashbacks to the first time you saw this man's wickedly smug face, to when he brutally murdered your friend Glenn in front of you and the others, to when his crew captured you when you went out on a supply run, to when he got them to torture you until you told them where Alexandria was..

You look at the ground and your eyes fall on a baseball bat a few feet away. You instantly recognize it. You know it is the same one that killed all those innocent people. You go and  grab it, and then walk back to him. Your hatred towards this man starts becoming more and more intense, the more you think about what he's done to you and your loved ones. Months ago, you swore you were going to kill him one day, but you didn't truly believe that you would be the one to actually get the chance to do it. You raise the bat just above his head and say his name through clenched teeth, "Negan."