Amnesia (Negan x Reader)

8. Home Sweet Home

You guessed you'd been walking for a couple of hours by the time you arrived at the Sanctuary, as Negan called it. You all walked into the run down building, heading up a set of rusty metal stairs. When you got to the top of the landing, you looked over the railing to see people working below you. The room was large and it looked like each person had a different post. Some people were preparing food, while others cleaned weapons and others carried what looked like laundry to one corner of the room. 

"Home sweet home!" Negan's voice echoed throughout the room. Everyone turned to look up and they all kneeled down to him. You had forgotten how much power this man possessed. It scared you, and at the same time made your legs tremble in a different kind of way.

"I know you all missed my handsome face, but I'm back now. And tonight, we're going to party hard. I think we all deserve to let loose for one night. Don't ya think?" Negan says, looking down at everyone. There's so much confidence oozing out of this man, it's kind of incredible to watch him.

Everyone starts shouting enthusiastically, praising and thanking Negan. When you thought about what the sanctuary would be like, you never imagined this. You imagined it as a prison but this was a community, albeit one with very strict rules but nonetheless a community. That certainly gave you a new outlook on who Negan really was. Although his ways of getting what he wanted weren't right...he still managed to keep people alive and hopeful. And that's fucking hard to do when you're constantly surrounded by these ravenous walking corpses.

"Now get your asses back to work, there's a lot of prepping to do."

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You're taken into a small room by one of Negan's men you don't recognize. You look around the room, all it had was a bed and a dresser. "This is your room" the young man states, not looking at you in the eye. He's not as intimidating as some of the other men here, which is a nice change. He looks to be in his mid-twenties with black hair and dark brown eyes. He has a short stubble along his jaw and upper lip, and his skin is tan. If these were normal circumstances you lived in, you would say he's an attractive guy. But these aren't normal circumstances, so you push that thought out of your mind.

"I'm going to get you a change of clothes and then I'll take you to the bathroom where you can shower." You open your mouth to protest but remember how long it's been since you last showered and you're dying to feel clean again. You nod instead, "Okay."

And with that he leaves, leaving you all alone for the first time in days. You take a deep breath in and let it out, plopping your whole body on the bed. You think back to your family in Alexandria. You miss them so much, it makes your chest ache. Tears start forming and you blink to stop yourself from crying. You need to keep it together, for the sake of yourself and your family.

The attractive guy returns and leads you to the bathroom down the hall. It looks like a gym's toilets, there are multiple stalls on either side of the walls and there's a door that leads to the showers. 

"Can I go to the bathroom?" You ask, turning to him.

"Uh, yeah, sure." he replies, scratching the back of his head. He looks just as awkward as you feel right now.

Once you've finished your business, you walk together into the open plan showers. He points to the closest one on the left and you walk closer to it, all of a sudden feeling extremely self-conscious. 

"Do you mind?" You say, making it known that you definitely do not feel comfortable having some random person watching you shower.

"I can't leave you alone. Negan's orders." He says, straightening his posture to look more intimidating. His failure to do so makes you want to laugh, but you hold it in.