Amnesia (Negan x Reader)

2. Moral Dilemma

You're about to collide the bat to his head, you can already feel the relief and justice as you're about to end it, when Negan suddenly opens his eyes. You look at him in fear but his eyes look..blank? He's starting to sit up when you yell "Don't! Don't you dare move or I'm going to crush your skull in!". He stares at you with a confused look on his face, which throws you off because you're only used to seeing hatred in his eyes. You can still do it. You still have the chance to kill him but something stops you, and it's not just the fact that he's just woken up.

"Sorry, who the hell are you? And where the fuck am I?" He says as he's rubbing the back of his head. He then looks down towards his injured arm and tries to cover the wound with his palm. He inhales sharply, indicating that he's in pain.

"I said don't fucking move! Put your hands out in front of you where I can see them!" you demand whilst you hold the bat with one hand and remove the rope you used as a belt from your jeans with the other.

"You didn't answer my questions. I have no idea who you are. What do you want from me?" He asks you, sounding sincere. Is he fucking serious? He thinks I'm going to buy this crap? He thinks I'm going to believe he doesn't know who I am, or that I don't know who the fuck he is?

"We can talk after I've tied your hands up", you reply. He looks somewhat defeated and extends his arms in front of him. You kneel down towards him and firmly tie his arms with the rope. As you finish with that, you proceed to remove the belt around his black jeans and wrap it above his wound, just tight enough to slow down the bleeding. Part of you feels weird helping this monster, but your instinct takes over and you know you can't refuse to help someone..even if that someone is him.

He's starting to look pissed. 'There's the familiar look I remember!' you think to yourself. "So now that you've got me all tied up, will you fucking tell me what's going on here?" he asks, raising his voice slight.

You decide to play along with his little game. If he thinks you believe him, he might let his guard down, and that'll be your chance to kill him or for you to get away. "There was a battle, everyone was killing each other. I almost managed to get out of there when one of your men started shooting at me. I had to run into these woods to get away. I was able to hide out for a while until I heard noise and when I came out, I found you laying on the ground unconscious". He listened intently, furrowing his eyebrows. You didn't see a point in lying to him about that.

"Don't you remember what happened?" you ask him curiously.

"I remember running and then feeling heat coming from my arm. I think I might have tripped, but that's as much as I can remember" he replies. He seemed so genuine, that you almost believed him. But you knew better than that. No way were you going to fall for this wicked man's lies.

Out of nowhere, a walker appears from your left. It is way too close to run away from it, so you have no other choice but to kill it. You tighten your grip on the bat and with one swing you hit it's head. The bat somehow gets stuck in it's skull. It looks like it's been caught up between the decaying flesh, muscle and bones. You haven't injured it's brain yet, so it's still flailing towards you. You can hear Negan's voice behind you but you're too focused on getting the bat unstuck from the walker's head to understand what he's saying.

Something grips your jumper from behind and you immediately realize that it's another walker attacking you. The grip isn't there for long though before the walker seems to be falling to its knees.

You bring your focus back to the first walker and you're finally able to remove the bat from it's skull. You take another swing and that does it. The walker falls limp on the floor, and you breathe a sigh of relief. You swiftly turn around just in time to see Negan stomping on the second walker's head. That's when you register that the reason why it fell down in the first place, is because Negan injured the back of its legs so it could no longer stand. He helped you? There's no way.

As he's finished taking care of the walker, he looks at you while panting heavily. It's not that angry look this time, it's something different. Surprise? Concern? You can't say for certain. You're panting as well, and you stare back at him intently. You don't want to let your guard down. You can't let him see any of your weaknesses.

"There's more coming" he declares. For a second you think that he's trying to make you let your guard down, but you soon notice all of the moving bodies slowly approaching you. He was right. More walkers were coming straight to you.

You look to the right of you, next to where he's standing and you see a small clearing. If you run now, you'll be able to make it. "Follow me" you say to him, sounding determined and confident.

"What about my hands? I can't protect myself like this" he extends his arms, gesturing for me to release them.

You shake your head - "No fucking way. Your hands are staying as they are. If we run now, we'll get away from the walkers without having to fight them", you say sternly.

His expression turns back into a scowl and he lets out an exasperated "Fine."

You start running towards the clearing and he's running next to you. You run fast enough so that you escape from the dead ones but not so fast that's he's behind you and you can't keep an eye on him.

The running turns into jogging after ten minutes and you're looking at your surroundings. Trying to figure out where you might be or if there's any shelter close by.

"Stop" you hear Negan say and turn towards him. He has his hands on his hips and he's looking up towards the sky. He then walks near some trees and seems to be looking at them closely. You walk closer to him to see what he's looking at and notice that trees around you have a thin green rope tied around them.

"I recognize this area. These signs. I'm not sure how but I think this will lead us to a shelter." Negan states and he starts walking towards where the signs are showing him to go. Your hesitant, but you're also starting to feel the exhaustion again and you know the walkers are probably still following you. You decide against your better judgement and follow him.

You walk in silence for a short while until a small wooden house comes into view. You're looking around you, to make sure this isn't some kind of trap but there seems like no one else is there apart fro you and Negan.

"I knew it! Didn't I tell you doll?" He exclaims, a smirk appearing on his face. You decide to ignore that. He walks up to the house and opens the door. You soon follow behind, not letting your guard down however.

You enter the small wooden hut, smelling the dampness and mold in the air. It's just a room with a table, a few chairs and surprisingly, a sofa. There's a tiny kitchen at the back and a chest of drawers beside it. You remind yourself to be grateful. Even though it's the last place you want to be in right now, at least it's shelter. It's going to give you the chance to rest for the day and figure out what the heck you're going to do about this situation.

As he's got his back to you, you hold the bat up high and say "Hey! Sit down on that chair." As he turns around to face you, his smirk is replaced with that scowl of his.

"You still think I'm going to hurt you?" he asks, but sits down on the chair nevertheless.

You don't respond. Instead, you find a thick rope on the table and use this to tie him tightly around the chair.

After this, you sit down on a chair on the opposite side of the table, the bat never leaving your hand. He's staring at you, and you're staring at him. If this were a completely different situation, you'd laugh at the staring contest going on. But now, you're face to face with the evil bastard who started all of this chaos in the first place; and there's no way you're backing down.