but before we get into this day, let me tell y'all what has happened in the last month and a half...
tjay can smd, fuck dat nigga and whatever the fuck he on.
i got a beautiful ass boyfriend.
micah and makhi for real moved in and fuck they ass too.
i'm a loner.
fuck malik and nick.
me and fabiana don't be talking like dat no more.
after i get this mf diploma my ass zooming to UCLA, cause i got in for track and law.
everyone in new york can suck my dick, word to my muva cause i hate everybody here.
me and tjay don't be talking no more, i think it's cause i fucked up but ion give a fuck i'm stubborn as hell and i'm not apologizing.
i hope they know they turned me into this cold hearted bitch because it was not my doing.
here is went it all went down...
may 18, 2019
i started talking to this guy that had been on my track team since the beginning of 9th grade, we talked here and there mostly about track and school but a couple months ago we started talking a lot. while tjay was fucking with angelina we would talk, facetime all that. nobody knew we was talking cause it wasn't that serious. everybody thought of him as just one of my track friends cause that's really what he was. i mean we did flirt here and there, but like i. sa'id before *it wasn't like that*. but damn i started catching a whole lotta feelings for dis nigga. to keep it short and simple he asked me to prom and i said yes🥰🥰. while prom was going down his ass asked me to be his girlfriend and i said yes. that's probably where everything went downhill.
fabiana did not fuck with the relationship from the jump, she said tjay the only nigga right for me. but did i listen to her ass? no. am i happy now? yes. this nigga ain't on the fucking with other bitches type shit. every fucking day it was something with tjay, with him it's like i got a shoulder lifted off my shoulders, it was refreshing. i apparently 'broke tjay's heart' but idgaf, i'm happy. he actin as if heen break my hear every single day, get a taste of yo own medicine bitch.
apparently he had left school, don't know where his ass went, don't give a fuck either. nick and malik mad at me cause i 'left them' ion be hanging out with them no more, i hang with my boyfriend and his friends they fun or whatever. malik, nick, raya, and fabiana be at the house all the time though hanging with micah and makhi. i stay in my room door closed, they purposely mess with me but i ignore them. one time i was trying to walk into the kitchen and nick and malik would not move out my fucking way, so i bumped into them and cussed the fuck outta them. they was shook as a mf, they was talm bout i 'changed, not the same person anymore'. ion think i changed, i just believe ion got time for nobody's bull shit.
do i miss them, definitely. will i tell em that shit, hell nawl.
when i tell you my ass don't talk to nobody, i be in and out of school.
i'm counting the days till grad cause right after the ceremony i'm going to cali, if nobody get their goodbyes from me it is what it is🤷🏾♂️. i'm just trying to be in my own lane and get racks, fuck whatever the next bitch doing.
tjay merritt 🎼💊
damn i'm listening to the pnb rock song: interlude and when i tell you he wrote this song about maya. i relate to it a little bit too much.
Bitch you can slide It's crazy, I thought that you would be mine (Mine, mine) But you broke my heart into pieces I let down my guard with no defense You said you really loved me, did you mean it? (Mean it) Swear your finesse game is the meanest Had me thinkin' you'd be by my side You was finna slide Said you was gon' ride Bitch you fucking lied I hope that you die (Die, die) I hope that you die Told me that you love me and you looked me in my eye Found out that you out here fucking all these other guys (Guys) Got me looking stupid Fuck you bitch, fuck cupid Got you number bitch I wish I never used it You the type of bitch I should've let the crew hit That's the real, bitch that's how I feel I just popped a pill So high in my feelings don't take it for granted Bitch I just bought you a bust down, don't give no fucks now, I need my chain back Never again, regret it goddamn, I already claimed that And you got me out here fucking all these bitches tryna get my name back
i really loved that girl, we was supposed to be forever, but nawl she fucked it all up. fucking with other niggas, and she always came for my ass? hypocritical ass bitch.
i have love for her, but i hate her. left a nigga heart broken, i never did her ass like this. i don't got the coldness of a heart to do that shit. and from the person with the biggest heart i know, she did me dirty. she did us all dirty.
i really thought we was finna get married and have kids together, if not that grow old together with the gang.
i still talk to my niggas fasho, everyday. i took my ass back to texas, going to the club, fucking every bitch. just to get over her, it isn't working but it will, one day. i'm finna hit cali though, get real bands.
maya cole💔
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mxyx._ : Man them hard times rock my innocence left me with the mind of a killa Feelin' like damn I lost control of my state of mind and my temper. Now young and heartless I done went numb, ion even feel shit or little.
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_________________ y'all i acc got ideas again😤😂💥🥀💔🤢🤪🤧🤑. so now i'm finna update. i got shit up my sleeves.
