After the event, I and the girl started to hang out more often. We started to do "play" games that children our age should have been doing calling it "house" it would be the two of us in her bedroom or her mums bedroom making out for what could be minutes hours, we didn't really know what we were doing but we just knew we shouldn't be doing it.
I won't lie and say I enjoyed doing it, it was just something to pass the time, I felt no pleasure from it and neither did I care if the care felt pleasure from it or care about her period. Every time my dad took me to her home this was just something we did, you would think that from me constantly going to her house and doing this we would be friends and super close at school it was a bit of the opposite we didn't interact or really speak to each other in school we were in the same year group but I was in A and she was in B. The only times we were hanging together was in a group as most girls and boys in primary usually just played with their own gender group unless we were all playing together.
While in primary I was also being bullied was it because I was overweight or shyer than others or just an easy target ill never know. I remember one situation I was alone with the group of boys I don't remember what was being said but I remember the feeling I felt at that moment, I felt very small an alone. At some point, the bullying stopped and I began secondary where I started to be bullied by those from another school I was never picked on by those who went to my own school.
Secondary school
Around this point I'm now 11 or 12 and I am in secondary school on my route to school I would have to regularly go past a school to get to my bus stop to get to school, while walking the students from the school would look back at me and snicker or slow down their pace to try and get me to go past them or they would point and laugh at me, it got to the point that I change my route to school I would cross the street before going to my home to avoid going past them, at one point I had stones thrown at me when I crossed the street to avoid them, I've had 2 instance when they have stopped me to say that their friend "liked me" which I would roll my eyes and walk past as they laughed while the second time the guy said ew disgusting.
there was one point where I assumed they finished school early and if you've ever been to a carnival in the UK they filled the entire street and i remember my heart beating rapidly as I kept my head down and tried to make my way through the crowd, going through this for 7+ years caused me to be closed off, insecure and afraid of crowds of people, to this day I'm still afraid to go near that area and avoid going near the street at certain hours.