Being Closer to God

13 :) Be ready to slip.

We were dancing and I don't know, because I was dancing so dancy- I mean, I was giving my all to the dance steps, I didn't look at the ground and I slipped. That part of the ground is different, pa-loob ng konti lang naman pero I still slipped.

But before that, I have a little argue with a friend. I wasn't going to her, their volleyball game. Here I go again, I just feel nah... it's like I don't belong again to their group like that... and I am not a volleyball player too but she said for support. I just- if I go there, I can't give my 100% support because of what I feel. I don't know, something is wrong with me. Maybe, there is also a tint of jealousy... I am jealous because she, they are all friends. I am jealous because they understand each other. I just feel not understood.

I am becoming like Elijah,

[He felt like giving up. The Lord had just used him to show the nation of Israel that the Lord is God. (1Kings 18). Yet, the threats of Queen Jezebel so alarme dhim that he ran to Beersheba, 100 miles south. Then he walked another 150 miles south to Horeb, the mountain of God.

Twice, God asked Elijah what he was doing there. Both times he answered with identical words- "I alone am left; they seek to take my life". He had become so preoccupied with his own fears that he had forgotten what God had done through him at Mount Carmel. Despit ehis great victory, Elijah plunged into the depths of discouragement. How easy it is for us to do the same.

God did not accept Elijah's notice that he was quitting. Instead He commissioned his tired servant to handle three major tasks. And by the way, elijah was arong when he said he was the only faithful one left. God had 7000 others who had not bowed to Baal.

Perhaps, like Elijah, you are despairing at the circumstances in your life. Let God speak to you. Instead of allowing you to quit, He will show you what you can do through his strength. -C. P. Hia

Our strength and hope is in the Lord-

We rest secure in His sure Word;

And though we're tempted to despair.

We know we're kept within His care.- D. De Haan.

When you're working for Jesus,

it is always too soon to quit.] From The Daily Bread.

We sometimes feel like we can't do it. I admit, when I say something to encourage me to keep going, when I am promising to myself to stop an addiction, in the back of my mind, there is still that voice that is saying 'You can't do it. You will not change. You are like that. You will always be stuck.'

Lets change that by prayer and petition.

Life is like a music. Sometimes the notes are high, sometimes they are low. But all of these notes are needed to produce a beautiful melody.

I learned that  'Even if your life is on-track, you may lose control sometimes. You may still fall but importantly you must be back up again and continue. You must be ready.'

When I fell on the ground, I wanted to cry but a part of me says that 'No, get up!' Yes, I got up.

It is like letting go of the past and being free from my little trauma too. When I was in Grade 5, I often slipped in our classroom, particularly in a same spot. And one day, natuluyan. I slipped and my hand karated a chair and when I looked at my right hand, it was curly and I can't move it. To make the story short, I was fractured and it was cemented and my hand came back to normal. And in that incident, I was afraid to fall again, to be fractured again.

I learned that "We must be careful at all times.'

But... I also learned from what happened in our lives that 'We shouldn't live my fear. We shouldn't live by the past. We must not be afraid to slip, to make mistakes because those mistakes correct us and makes us a better person.'

'In all scenes that happens in our lives, it can make us to bitter or better. May that happening make us better.'

I am not alone, God is with me... :) <3

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God bless!

10/6/14