Panic // Billie Eilish

S E V E N

Its been around three weeks since the situation and things seem to be back to normal. Or even better. No one except Tris, Billie, Fin and I know the details about Tristan's and I's mini fallout which is good. All people know is that Tristan and I don't fuck with Billie, and she doesn't fuck with us. 

I rub my hands over my face, applying Conan's new clay mask from Sephora, and watching as Conan and Lexi do the same. 

We are sitting in Conan's room, having a little detox session, after studying. Well, after trying to study at least, but getting distracted from Lexi's phone constantly buzzing with texts from a decent amount of different guys.

"Lex I'm so jealous. The only guy who is trying to text me is that creepy guy from homeroom, Zak Davis" Conan says, rolling his eyes.

"Aw, but Zak's sweet" I gawk.

"Nah that dude is creepy as fuck. I'm pretty sure he has a copy of my timetable. I printed one and stuck it in my locker, then I locked my locker, with my birth date, which he knows, because he gives me a birthday present, every single freakin year. Next day... Gone"

I nod my head, still trying to process and understand what Conan just said. Sounded like straight up gibberish.

"Aw, Conan. I'll be sure to hook you up with this bisexual hottie who keeps trying to get in my pants" Lexi smirks.

"Thanks babe. But if he's a hottie, how come you're not letting him get in your pants?"

"I have my eye on someone specific right now". Her smirk becomes even bigger, tugging her bottom lip in between her teeth.

"Spill" I command.

"Yeh Lex, who is the hot hunk?"

She looks up from her phone finally, her eyes glinting with excitement. She leans forward before whispering what i'd never thought she'd say.

"Not a guy"

Conan and I look at each other, our eyebrows raised in surprise. I have known this girl for two years, and I never would've expected that to come from her. She's honestly, the straightest girl I know. Or knew...

 No shade, because I would never judge, it was just unexpected.

"Oh my god. Fucking spill. Who is she?" Conan yells, standing up and sitting on Lexi's laps, causing her to drown more in the beanbag she's sitting in. She presses a finger to her teeth, her nasty habit of biting nails.

"Tell us!" I beg. "You know we won't tell anyone"

"Okay, okay... Its someone you guys know...". My head starts to spin, hoping its not who just popped into my head. Lexi twirls her nose ring and bites her lip, waiting for us to guess. 

Don't say it.

"Is it Tatum from gym?" Conan asks with a little shimmy of the shoulders. Lexi shakes her head, still smirking.

Please don't say it.

"Cynthia from cheerleading?" 

"She's hot but nah" Lexi says sticking her tongue out. Conan grabs her shoulders and shakes them, wanting her to spill.

Please don't fucking say it.

"Alright, alright. It's Billie". My heart drops. Conan quickly gives Lexi a smile, but I can see his eyes flick back and forth from Lexi to me, uncomfortably.

"Holy shit Lex... You're into her!"

Conan doesn't know that I slept with Billie, but he knows something was going on before I told him that Tris and I were not cool with her anymore. It's not that he's untrustworthy, because he would be totally understanding if I was into girls, but he can be harsh in judgement when it comes to doing the right thing by other people, even though those other people might have wronged you. An example of that would be, Tristan pulling that stunt a few weeks ago, then me, not having even broke up with him, slept with a girl I had known for less than two weeks, a day later.