being the little brother.

I will protect you

Jays pov
I don't love life but I sure don't hate it. I don't hate the past but I sure don't love it. Everything that's happened to me is okay. Because it's working. I see bailey each day at school. Some kids act up around me but I'm okay with that. Like today for example it's Tuesday and Sammy's made me some nice toast and sent me along to school everyone else being either at work or asleep
So Jane and Austin are keeping around a bit longer rich is nice. There one of the few people I can talk to or actually trust.
"Hey JJ how are you doing on this horrible school day?" Bailey. He doesn't treat me differently and I like that.
"Hi. I'm alright you?"
"I'm fine as always and you know I was asking for a number." Okay yes I have a number system. My therapist suggested it. Slightly cheesy but whatever. (You know who you are. yes I think it's cheesy but that won't stop me bugging you about it)
0: the lowest of the low like when I'm in the cave low
1: not great I hate the world and I hate everything in it
2: I'm not gonna do this today bye bye
3: I am not doing well and I'm gonna try go home
4: you know I don't feel well so don't piss me off.
5: I'll have to deal with it
6:I'm ok
7: I'm alright I'm not gonna die at least
8: I feel almost like I normal overly weird and stressed human
9: I'm great
10: love the things around me and I could be here forever
"5"
"Okay then that better than usual you normally being a 3.5 which isn't on the scale ok" I smiled and we walked to science. I know I said I don't normally do classes but there trying a new sceme which no one really agrees on but whatever.

-lunch-
"You know what im gonna ask" I swear bailey asks me this one million times a day
"4"
"You are not leaving me not today you've only got two lessons left." That's true. I've done a lot today. I'm tired and stressed. I don't wanna be here. All the people and all the straining and the worrying. I have to leave. I don't want to but I have to.
"Sorry bailey but I've got to go"

Baileys pov
I get that it's hard for him. I get that he's been through shit but I don't know how I can help. I've tried so many things but nothing's helped. I've been trying to get him to meet nick an old friend who struggles with 7 sibling and a useless mother but it's kinda hard. Maybe someday this will all be normal. Jay can be the same guy I knew just  months ago. But that seems impossible and I hate that. I hate that I'll never see him the same jay that he was. But I'm also worried for myself because I want to kill whoever did anything to harm him. And I really want to kill them. His parents and Erik. They all left him. Made him scared.
But people still take care of him now: me, Jake, Sam, Jane, Austin and I'm sure there are others. He's safe I hope and he better be getting better. And once this is all over he better not forget me. Because he have one more problem. His parents are still out there. Idk what they want or who they want but they want someone and I'm pretty sure it's jay. How do I know? I received a note. I haven't told jay it might actually kill him. But I got a note from his father saying

I want them and you and your little friends are going to have to back off. I will hurt you all greatly if you don't let me get your target
G.O'C

It's the most stupid cliche I've ever seen but it's a real threat. I should turn it in but again it's the most cheesy thing in the world they'd say I'm stupid for trying to pull the stupid prank. So I'll keep it for now. But nothing's gonna happen to jay

Okay I know this chapter was a little ridiculous and it had some hints to a certain person who is a friend in real life but I want them to know I don't consider them as jays character it's just you relate quite a bit. Again it was a stupid chapter.
Jay