All F'd Up

Closer To Heaven

      I finally manned up and told her how I felt in person. She seemed... hesitant to say anything about it but what she said surprised me. "Nobody has ever told me things as nice as that before and treated me like that". How though!?!?!?!? that's my question, how has nobody ever told her how beautiful, smart and funny she is? I mean it's so obvious so why hasn't someone told her that she looks like an angel, she acts like shes a superstar, (and in my eyes she is), she has the voice that could put you to sleep it's so soothing.

      Just the thought of her warms me. whenever I think about her everything gets easier and I do better. I honestly couldn't imagine a world without her, and if that did exist then I wouldn't want to live in that world. I wish I could get closer, like a hug or, anything. I want to be able to talk to her 24/7 and she her beautiful smile and her super cute dimples. I wish to see her freckled face happy and caring. Now that is a dream that puts me in heaven and that's saying something because i'm an atheist. However she could surely change my ways.