When darkness falls and I close my eyes,I cant help but fall into a nightmare
Watching flashbacks about my abusive relationships makes me cry
Seeing my body thrown over Hart and Sunshines frame with you over me beating me
I cringe,resisting you until the end is always the same
With you leaving me to wallow in my misery
Glancing around in the vast,never ending darkness I spot another memory
This one involves Seamus,Hart,Sunshine and I
Im in the kitchen cleaning,the kids upstairs
You come in and roughly turn me around,drunk
Oh how I despise the smell of alcohol and cigarettes
Pushing me around and finally grab my throat with your hands
You push me up against the wall
I try to get out of your grasp,only for you to tighten your grip on my throat
I gasp,desperately trying to get air
Instead I scream with all my energy hoping someone will save me
An eternity later the boys come in and start crying and screaming at you
You ignore them and continue
My vision blurs and my head spins,I slowly start slipping away
Moments later I feel your hands leave my throat and I start gasping for air
Coming to a little while later,I notice a neighbor staring at me
Stating that I'm ok now,my hand moves to my throat
The boys are staring at me,their faces etched with worry
Beckoning them closer I clutch them tightly to my chest,crying
Everything will be alright,I hear myself say
The memories than start to blur and I awake to the start of a new day
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In Time
PoetryI decided to write my feelings in poems and I hope u guys enjoy.It covers a lot of topics,some of them are redundant and I hope you enjoy them nonetheless.Love you guys and I hope you continue supporting my works. Love,Kanae (^~^)