🌼🌹 Do I love you, really? ~ Alemanda/Mandalesha🌹🌼

💔 Chapter 1 💔

Amanda's POV: 

"And.... cut, thats a wrap" the room was suddenly filled with cheers and applause. Auditions were finally over! I couldn't wait for a well deserved break, after weeks of intense filming and debating, I could do with a relaxing holiday. I couldn't wait to spend more time with my best friend, Alesha. We hadn't had much time for each other during filming, so we had decided to spend a week together in Barcelona. I went over to hug Simon and David, congratulating them both on finishing the season, Ant and Dec joining us in conversation. I spotted Alesha talking to Stephen up on the stage, I smirked at her and she briefly smiled at me before returning her attention to Stephen who was filming for BGMT. 

Alesha's POV: 

"Who are you giving the teeth to Alesha?" Stephen teased, noticing me smiling at Amanda, making me blush, he looked over at Amanda who was now approaching us. The cameras all zoomed to Amanda walking over to us. "Hello Amanda!" Stephen said, enthusiastically. "Hiya" Amanda grinned, carrying her long gown in her hands as she climbed up the steps to the stage "So how are you doing?" Stephen questioned. "Actually, Im not here for you Stephen, sorry ITV2" She laughed smugly, making me laugh also, as Stephen went along with the banter. "Im here for Alesha" She continued, only to be interrupted by Stephen "Oooooh!" He joked, he signalled to the camera crew to 'ooh along. "Oh shut it!" Amanda joked along. "I'm here to collect Alesha, we better start packing for our holiday babe" She carried on. "What? Where's my invitation? Where you off to? Stephen asked. "Barcelona! A wondeful sunny beach holiday, just me and Mandy" I said, milking it in. "Ahh yes! I can almost feel the hot sun already can you Lesha?" Amanda joined in, rubbing it in Stephen's face "Oi, enough of that, I've got enough footage now thank you"said Stephen sarcastically, through gritted teeth. "Be sure to send photos! I'm sure viewers would love to see you at the beach" He winked. Amanda rolled her eyes and grabbed my hand and we sprinted down the stage excitedly to our dressing rooms, which were conveniently on the same corridor. 

Amanda's POV: 

"Hurry up and get dressed okay?" Alesha said, as I entered my dressing room, and she continued down the corridor. I stripped out of my long sparkling frock, and into some jeans, and a plain white t-shirt. I rinsed my hair quickly, from the hair spray and hair gel used for the final and tied it into a messy bun, then headed to Lesha's room. In all my excitement I forgot to knock, and walked right in. Alesha stood in light pink lingerie, I couldnt help but stare, holy shit! Alesha peered over at me from the reflection of her mirror, "Hey, did you want anything?" She said casually, and carried on undoing her hair, from the extravagant hair do she had for the finals. "Oh, Im sorry, I'll come back later." I apologised. "Why? Stay." She mumbled, fiddling with a couple of hair pins in her mouth. "Um.." I stumbled over my words. "Sorry, do you feel uncomfortable? I mean it's not like we haven't seen each other in our underwear before" She said, finally turning around to face me. 

Technically speaking, that was true, but not by choice, although neither of us minded. For instance, when my dressing room flooded, I shared one with  Alesha, there were many occasions where we had dressed, or rather undressed infront of each other, we didn't seem to care though. "Well okay" I replied. I shut the door behind me and sat on the couch. "Oi Lazy! Could do with a bit of help here!" Alesha said pointing to her hair. "Oh sorry!" I responded, I quickly shot up from the couch and scrambled to help Alesha. "Excited?" I asked, as I tugged out a couple of hair bands, finally freeing her hair. "Very! More so about spending time with my fabulous best friend" She smiled, as she tipped down her long soft brown hair. "Aww, me too... I missed you, even though I spend everyday with you, It felt a bit distant" I responded. "Yeah, I guess we were so caught up in filming. We really are married to our jobs" she joked. "I think I'd rather be married to you than my job Lesha" I laughed, Alesha laughed along too as I went over to her clothes railing. I inspected the rail, searching for a casual outfit for Alesha. "Lesha! Catch!" I said chucking her a grey tank top with a rose pattern on it and some denim ripped shorts. "Thanks honey" She said, catching them singlehandedly. 

Alesha got dressed, in the outfit I gave her and we got ready to leave the theatre. We sent our goodbyes and headed for the parking lot, looking for Alesha's car. I was staying at Alesha's for the night as our flight was in the morning, also just because we loved sleepovers, we were little children at heart, and we both knew it. "Sweetie?" Alesha said, alerting me, as I almost dozed off. "Yes Ali" I answered. "Can we stop at the Starbucks Drive Thru just ahead? I feel like Im gonna fall asleep, which isnt great because we still have a fairly long drive. I need a coffee" Alesha asked. "Oh yes please! Im gonna fall asleep too, that final was hectic, I'm exhausted." I replied. "Aw, I love sleepy Amanda, you look so cute asleep you know? So you can sleep if you want, your not the one driving" She stated. "NO! I'm keeping you company!" I insisted. I wasn't gonna let Alesha drive while I lazily slept. 

We went into the drive thru ordering our drinks, and headed back for the road. We fell in a comfortable silence during the journey until I spoke up. I started singing, the first song that came to mind "Hold On" (By Chord Overstreet) I closed my eyes and sang the chorus softly.

Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you

A long endless highway, you're silent beside me
Driving a nightmare I can't escape from
Helplessly praying, the light isn't fading
Hiding the shock and the chill in my bones
They took you away on a table
I pace back and forth as you lay still
They pull you in to feel your heartbeat...
Can you hear me screaming, "Please don't leave me!"

Suddenly, I heard sniffles from beside me, my eyes quickly flew open and peered over to Alesha, her eyes were filled with tears, some rolling down her cheek. "Ali?" I gasped. "Oh my God baby! What is it?" I asked, extremelely worried. "Nothing Manda it's fine" She mumbled. "No, honey, pullover" I ordered. Alesha did as I said, and we pulled over at the side of the busy motorway. "What is it babe? Talk to me please" I said gently, as I stroked her arm. "That song... it reminds me of someone very special to me, it describes exactly how I felt when--" she paused, and sat in her seat silently, tears still forming from her eyes. I reached over to wipe away her tears, with my thumb, stroking her cheek. "I know it's not my place but who is it?" I asked, worried if I had over stepped the line. "You" She replied. "When you were pregnant with Hollie, I was scared shit, I thought you were gonna leave me, I didn't wanna lose my best friend. I cried every night, and to make it worse I just broke up with Azuka, you know how difficult that was for me? You were there I had nobody while you were in hospital, and if you left, I don't know what I would do. I love you so much." Alesha choked. At this point, I felt tears stream down my face. "Alesha! I love you too, you don't understand how much I love you, I would do absolutely anything for you. I would give my own life for yours, I always put you before me, because if anything happened to you Alesha.... I dont know what I would do. Your more than my best friend Lesha, your everything to me" I stated giving her a friendly peck on the lips. She hugged me tightly, holding me as if she would never let go.