Can I Trust You, Dad?

6-God Is Our Salvation

Boring History class. The problem isn't the lessons itself but the teacher, she was the problem. I couldn't help but getting distracted or falling asleep on my desk.

But today I wasn't feeling sleepy at all, I was perturbed by all the thing that have been going lately.

《Maria?》

《Yes, Abigail?》

《You look perturbed today, what happened? You have been absent for two days...what is going on?
You look like you've seen a ghost》 she told me worried.

《I... just can't...》 I said.

I had tears coming through my eyes but  didn't wanted to let them out.
I don't wanna show my weakness, people could take advantage of my tears to make me feel even worse.

The bell ringed.
I just threw everything in my bag and stepped out of the class as quick as possible.
Abigail followed me running, she was begging me to talk to her. I wanted to, But there was too many people around.
She just blocked me and slammed me against the wall.

《Maria, what's wrong? Is it Victoria? Again?》 She asked me with an agressive tone.

《No, even worse...》 as soon as I said that I had tears going down my cheeks.

I stared telling her about everything, from my mom's and grandma's dead to Chris.
She was listening to me hugging me and wiping my tears off.

《My poor baby, you are lost in this mad world》 she said

《Yes, I am...so who the fuck should I believe now?》 I said between my tears.

My phone vibrated, it was a text message. I asked Abigail to open it for me, I wasn't able to in that moment.

《It's your da...hum...Chris...》 She said awkwardly

I just grabbed my phone to see what the fuck he wanted.

Hi, Mary.
It's dad, today I'm going to pick you up so we can go to your mom's house to take all the things I didn't take when you were in hospital.

Have a nice day, darling.

What? Darling? For real?
I didn't even know if he was worth to be called dad.
I was typing that I didn't need a pick up from school and that I wasn't ready to come back there, which is bullshit cause I just wanted to avoid him.

《You should go there and find proofs》 said Abigail

Shit, she is right. If I go there I could figure out how things went when mom got pregnant. But I'll have to stay with him for a while.
Okay, I will go and try to avoid him as much as possible.

I erased what I was about to send and sent him that it was okay for me and all the rest.

Once we were done, a small group of four boys walked by us and stopped.
They were just basic high school boys, really mean and they though they were better than anybody else in the world.

《Hey, do you want a real reason to cry?》 Asked one of them

Before I could even reply back or other just kicked my leg hard and stared to beat me. He was telling me that I should kill myself, that I was ugly, not worth it.
Abigail tried to pull him off me but got beaten by another guy. They all have stared beating us and making fun of us as well.
We were two against four.

People will pass by and stare, people will do nothing about it.
My school is just a huge jungle, everyone fights for their own survival.
And if you are a little lost bunny, you're just fucked. Teenagers scare other teenagers.
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nce they where done I heard a familiar voice, that voice I hate so much.

《That was hilarious, guys!》

It was Victoria, she's whatever, I mean she's only the one making me suffer everyday. Not a big deal so...
H

ow could someone be that pretty on the outside but hideous on the inside?

I've never understood why she has always been this mean to me.

《You've completed the dare, now we can go on a date》 she told to one of the boys smiling.

Then they just walked away like nothing happened.
Who could  care about two injured bunnies in the jungle?

《I am sorry, Maria》 said Abigail

《I am sorry that I couldn't manage to protect you》 she continued

I just hugged her and told her that it was whatever, that I didn't care about me much but I was worried for her.
W

e decided to go to the toilet so we both could rearrange our appearance so we could act like nothing happened.

Once there I looked into the mirror and I saw that I had a huge black eye, wounds over my lips and others a bit everywhere on my face.
Abigail's face wasn't better either, she had a mark on her left cheek, her lower lip has gotten bigger and her nose was bleeding.
We've never have been beaten that bad.

《It would be fine》 I said to her

《No, it wouldn't, look at my cheek》

She just took a bit of paper putted it in her nose to prevent it to bleed even more.

I decided to take paper as well and put it inside my nose to make her laugh.

《Hey, look at me Abigail, I'm our Math teacher》

She turned around and looked at me laughing. I wanted to cry on the ground really bad on that moment butI didn't want my friend to be sad.

《Take your seat, young girl! And don't forget that Satan's bad, God is our salvation》 I said with a stupid voice.

《Oh my God, Maria》 she said between two laughs.
She took another piece of paper to imitate me, we were fucking ridiculous.
But that's okay, as long as she's not sad.

At the end of the day, I just walked out the school with my hair in front of my face and I kept my head down, I didn't wanted anyone to see it.
I

've heard a clacson, so I turned my head and saw Chris with his head out of his car smiling. He was wearing a pair of sunglasses as well.

《Maria, I am here》he claxonated again.

What a Wal-Mart dad.
I just went inside the car qnd said a little hi.

《Wasn't emo dead?》he asked me

《No...it is...fashionable again now...you know...》

《Can you please pull your hair out of your face?》

《Why?》

He didn't reply and just putted my hair on the side and he saw my face.