if you read this
i don't think you'll ever see this but if you so happen to, this is everything i'm feeling about you right now
i'm craving your arms, i'm craving you in my bed; i don't sleep good anymore
i'm craving that hard piece of metal in my back as we lay on your futon in the dark with your red light on
i miss your scent. my favorite place was right in the crook of your neck, it smelled like home.
i miss the way you'd kiss me, i miss the way we were so in sync.
i want your bare chest on mine, holding me, keeping me warm.
it hurts not knowing what happened that night. it hurts knowing that you are more in love with her than you could ever be with me.
the very thought of that rips apart my soul and chews and spits out my heart.
i'll always love you, you've helped shape me into a better person than i was before you. i wish that went both ways, i wish you would stick around for me like i stuck around for you.
this is just a mess and i don't think anyone cares or if anyone's gonna read this but tonight my heart aches more than it ever has
