Love is a sickness [Clarktavia]

In sickness and health

Octavia:
   A month and a half had passed and Clarke and I grew really close. She was definitely getting better, but I only got worse. Today I had to go in for a surgery and I had to admit I was scared. The doctor hooked me up to a few things and before he put the mask on to put me to sleep I said "wait! Clarke come here." Clarke hopped off her bed and walked over. The procedure I was getting done was serious which meant that there was a chance that I could die. Clarke looked down at me and said "I know you're scared. I can see it in you but...“Look into your heart and find your courage for you are never alone when friends have already built wings on your heart.” I smiled at Clarke and she grabbed my hand and looked to the doctor. "She's ready." She said. The doctor placed the mask over my face and said "Okay Octavia I want you to count down from 30." I nodded and began to count. Clarke counted with me which gave me some security. "Twenty nine, twenty eight, twenty seven, t-twenty six, t-t-twenty five…" I couldn't speak again. I heard faintly "you've got this." And passed out.

Clarke:
    Octavia was out and I looked to the doctor. "Take care of her...please." I said. The doctor nodded. The bed was rolled out and I sat on my bed and thought. Through my thoughts I looked to the empty space and tears filled my eyes. I realized something really quick. I love Octavia and I didnt say it...and she could possibly not wake up. I broke down then and their. What if she felt the same way? What if I missed a great relationship?!
     9 hours later Octavia's bed was rolled back in. My whole body tensed.  Bellamy followed in and looked to Octavia, then the doctor. "How did it go?" He asked impatiently. The doctor said "it went well...she woke up during the procedure but we put her right back to sleep. There were a few complications, but she should be fine." I felt my body relax and looked to the bed. The doctor hooked her up to her normal machines plus one. I knew them all and what they did from our constant late night talks. The doctor left and Bellamy pulled up a chair. I looked over and said "So She's going to be okay?" Bellamy nodded "yes, shes in good condition now for after surgery." He said. I nodded and got up as I saw her rustle in the bed. I ran over to the bedside and waited for her eyes to flutter open.

Octavia:
   I felt my body come off from anesthesia which I had never felt before. It was weird. As I felt myself try to wake up I was met by an excruciating pain in my head. I opened my eyes and covered my eyes with one hand and held my head with the other. I groaned. I heard Bellamy quickly get up and shut the lights off. All the light in the room was now natural from the windows on a cloudy day. I uncovered my eyes and saw Clarke standing by me. She smiled so I forced a smile myself even though I was not in a smiling mood. I took my hand off my head because I didn't want either of them to worry. Clarke looked to me and said "how do you feel?" I sighed and sarcastically said "great." I saw Clarkes face drop. "Its okay though...I'm tough." I said trying to ease her. She nodded and Bellamy's hand rested on my lower leg. "Hey sis…" he said quietly. I smiled and looked over. He knew not to ask how I felt because I never felt good coming out of surgery. I felt the whole world spin for a second and before I could get the words out, I threw up. All over the bed.