GLAMOROUS SKY

Chapter.3 - Kim Ji-na -

3. - Kim Ji-na -

As the train rolled into the Seoul station, it felt like I could not breath. I would finaly meet him now, Hyuk-ji. And my new friend who was also named Ji-na seemed to be happy too, on my behalf. We both went out of the station together, me with my luggage and she with her black leathered guitar case on her back. We were so different that it must have been a fun sight to see us together.

I looked at her from the corner of my eyes, smiling. I realy wanted to thank her for making me have such a great time. But as soon as we walked over the plattform, I froze as I saw him standing there waiting for me. - Hyuk-ji!, I shouted out of joy, and ran as best as I could with the rolling luggage behind me. I ran into his arms crying, it had been such a long time.

He stroke trough my hair, and I got a full view of him now. He realy had not changed at all, with his brown coloured hair, and always relaxed way of dressing. And that apologizing smile he always had been bearing was still there too, he actually looked pretty much like a puppy.

- Oh Hyuk-ji, there's someone you just have to meet!, I said and turned around pointing at nothing but mere air. - who?, he murmured as it was revielded that the plattform was empty, this late it was no one there but us. But I decided to not let the dissapointment break me, now that I would be facing my new perfect life, just him and me.

- I have missed you so much, I said while wiping my tears away, he just nodded while he calmly held his arms around me. - Jin-na, he whispered, and then he took me home. His apartment was realy messy, full of junk-food and trash, and of cource buckets of paint. He was quite an artist. But it did not matter anymore, I thought, because now I was more than happy to clean up his mess, too make him good food, made with love.

Sadly, it was so late. So we did not get to spend a lot of time together, on the first day in our new lives. And the next day when I woke up, he had allready gotten up to work. So then I decided to clean his whole apartment, untill it was flawless, and then to spend the rest of the day cooking the perfect meal. I worked hard, I was used to that. After his advice of cource, because back home I had about three part time jobs.

When I was finaly finished with absolutely everything, with cleaning everything untill it was shining, with the perfectly served food on the table, I sat down exhasuted. Just waiting. Waiting for him to come home from work. I did not wish to bother him, not at all, but as the food would get cold soon I decided to text him. Simply, - when will you get home?

And Hyuk- ji simply answered, - soon. And somehow it made me feel bad about myself, and I was on the urge of crying when he finaly returned home. I think I'm very sensitive, sometimes I just can't help myself. Hyuk-ji sat down by the table, started eating as if it was the most natural thing he could ever do.

He did not comment anything, the fact that I had worked so hard to clean his whole apartment. - So how have your day been?, he said in the middle of chewing, and then drinking from his beer. I bitt my lower lipp, - I dont know, I have been so busy, I said. He nodded smiling, - busy searching for a jobb?, he said smiling satisfyed over the tasty food I had made him.

Searching for a jobb?, my smile stiffned and I shaked my head. - You have not?, he sighed, - ahh.. Ji-na you know you can't live here with me, he stated, - you have to get your own apartment, the faster the better. I did not say anything, I just held my tears in the best I could and swallowed. All I had asked for was that he would be gratefull for the love I had been giving him.

So we would not live like a couple afterall. I could not sleep that night. And I could not stand the thought of how disillusjonal I had been. Why is it that I'm always so hopefull?, and then always gets so dissapointed. Its not the first time, naturally. I still remember the day he refused to take me with him to Seoul. He told me I had to become independent, and I did. Whatmore does he want from me?

I have always been so naive. Believing in love at first sight and such. And my first love was like that, silly. One sided. His name was Kang Sang-woo, and he was even married and such. I met him during my freshman year in High School, outside a cinema. I went alone, as I found watching movies alone in the cinema realy calming. Besides, I realy love movies too. But this time, I stepped into a trap made by the devil, wich could not do more than but to hurt me.

I felt so dizzy, after not eating properly trough that day. So I was on my way breaking down outside that cinema, just when he confronted me. He helped me up, comforted me by his prescense. Even took me out on a dinner at some fancy resturant, I would never have visited whitout him. Then I was happy with that, it was more than enough for me and I expected to never see him again.

Untill he showed up outside my work. I guess I had told him where I was working and all. We met several times, he took me to those fancy dinners and then we made love. Untill five months later, when he suddenly told me that he was being transfered to Seoul. That we could not meet no more. I was heartbroken, I believed I would never ever love again. But then I met Hyuk-ji, trough a friend.

Long ago, I had decided that this love story would not end like the other. Definitely not. And so like Hyuk-ji asked me to, the very next day I went out whitout cleaning up his mess, to look for an apartment for my own.